Back again, NOTHING SPECIAL..

SLACKING, PLAY STEPS..Play until dont know today is results day plus I cant even login to the student portal..

Hais dont talk about this kind of sad stuff leh but then still wanna say today or should I say this year I gonna be alone celebrate countdown for new year le.. Really hate it when Im alone for too long..

Am I fated to be alone for my whole ITE life?????? Hope not cause I dont think I can cope the emptiness for that long....

I really wanna cry..cry..cry..cry..I hate that emptiness so much that I wanna kill myself..KILL KILL KILL..

Does LOVE always so empty when there isnt someone to carry that love to you???

Hais any way this year gonna be alone..AGAIN..

Yesterday woke up also do nothing ..Afternoon sian until can not le so went library with my sis..At there find books after awhile I found this book quite nice..Hais another love story again..

Love story always is like "I love You", "You love Me", betrayal and all those stupid stuff..

But the funny things are that I love to read it dont know why just love it maybe is because some times love can give you something that normal family love or friends love cant give you ba..On the other hand also can give lots of sufferings..

Sometimes I do want to find some one to love but finding needs lots of time.Finding love isnt that easy like 123 is so damn difficult like solve a suppppper hard algebra question. So sometimes I rather be alone cause you can say Im sacred to be hurt ba..Haa..MAYBE NOT RIGHT..

Anyway on the way back home we went to CCK wet market de behind de KFC to eat while slacking till 5,6plus then go home..Reached home then zuo bo but end up reading thsat stupid love story till 11plus. After that my mum came home from work then I went to buy supper cause we two haven eat anything yet..On the way to buy supper sms with nico just a random msg cause we two like so long never talk to one another le ba. Chit-chat till 12 plus then I went to watch 包晴天 till 1plus in the morning after that show I went to sleep.. Yaaaaaaaa..NOthingto say abt today cause I think I wont be going out or what...Wanna stay at home to rot..Gotta go to watch show le..Muacks to everyone..Next time you all got outing tell me hor..

在这个世界里，如果没有你，我就不会变成这样了。

我知道我不可以这样想，可是你的存在让我难以忍受。

我不是想说我还对你念念不忘而是有时会想到你的好罢了。

所以你就好好的对待她吧，我呢就好好的读好我的书吧。

如果你在那一天想起我，我就很开心了。

在这个世界里，如够没有你，我的人生就不会因为你而变的很精彩。

我知道现在说什么也没有什么用的，但是我还是要说声对不起，是我辜负了你。

希望她能替我好好的对你好。可是你也要记特我哦。

在这个世界里，如果么有你，我就不会变的那么董事了。

我也知道你曾发过式你不会在看我的部落格的，可是我还是要说。

在你还没认识我地时候，我是一个很会玩弄人的心的可是你的到来令我不能不改变我的个性。

说这么多我是想说声再见了，来世再见吧，这有可能是我最后一次对你说声“我爱你”。

16/12/10

Woke up at 11am plus doing nothing till around 5pm plus to get ready to meet others to buy the BBQ stuff after buying went to liting's house ton till the next day 1.30am then went home to bathe then sleep le..

17/12/10

Woke up at around 11plus then got prepare for later going to buy the seafood at Jurong West Sheng Siong. Waited for Kok Hui and Kelvin to aboard the bus while I was at sunshine the bus stop. At around 2plus they called me said that they were gonna reach sunshine le so after awhile I aboard-ed the bus and I sat beside Kelvin.

We three went quiet after I aboard the bus after awhile I finally reached at Jurong West Sheng Siong. We went in to find the tongs but cant find it at first, thanks to me I went to ask the staff for the tongs. So the tongs found le the next things were the seafood and the sweet potatoes. After buying everything we need-ed, we take bus to liting's house.

On the way to her house kelvin alight one stop before us to go Daniel's house to help-out. Reached liting's house, slack and took photos with her. After awhile sampson also came to help us, we continue slack for awhile then cab down to thee bbq pit. We in the cab keep kajiao kok hui all the way to thee bbq pi venue.

I went to wash the sweet potatoes after washing it went to eat something and drinks, ya cause got talk to my sec teachers. In between all this I got to know about Yeo Jun Hao he quit sch because of his family problems is it true I not sure but we indeed are worry for him.

After talking to teachers I went to the sofa to slack, talk on phone with with chen hao kor and sms with my others kor. In between Tan Jun Hao keep kajiao me but I didnt put it on my heart cause I dont know ermm should I say I can see some people who had change and is change quite alot.

Aiya just wanna say I miss you all alots alots alots..Hope see you all again next year ba..Wishing you all your exam results can score very high ya..

I dont know what to say now..Ermm I think I will just stop here ba..

当一切都成定局是就算想要改变什么也来不及了不是吗？

当你还以为这一切都能想你想像一样的时候，一切的一切将会在那一速间改变的。

当你想通了未必一切的一就会因为你的想同而该变的，这是一个很苯的想方。

我会这样讲不是在针对任何人而是说说我的看方罢了，所以别误会我哦。

Im back! Imma gonna revive my blog..

From since from oct 26 I never update it is because I have lost my feeling to update it.

Because of you I stop updating it w/o you my life have become so dead but at the mean time thanks for leaving me here all alone or should I say ABANDON..

All this time I have been like M.I.A to quit alots of my friends sorry everyone I will try dont to MIA too much let me say this first hor I will try but not confirm will dont hor. All this time I have been slacking, finding jobs till I really give up so this past fews wks or days I think I have been slacking at home.

Ok let me just say the recent ok.. Recently I was so damn bored so I went to call who is free to chat with me. Call and call and call finally got one who was free so we both started to chat like we never see one another for dont know how many years haa.. We started from debating about why Msia guys are so attractive from Spore guys . After debating my that friend said he got some thing to show me so I on my msn, after awhile he send me this document that he copy and paste from a website. It was about a story of this guy acknowledge a girl as his god-daughter after some incident that happen in between them, the god-daughter died because she loved she god-father so much that their relationship had become so twisted and eventually involved alots of people into it. If any of you wants to read feel free to tell me I send it to you..

After I had read it honestly I felt so sour. [人往往就是要等到失去了在会懂得珍惜，为什么要等到失去了才珍惜呢。是因为没察觉到吗还是因为不懂要真样珍惜眼前人呢。] To me I dont wanna think about it now all I want is to be alone, single for now..

~Nothing Special~

一个人是寂寞，两个人是快乐

如果我的爱，让你有了难过

如果可以, 那么请将我忘记

爱, 诺不是太爱, 怎么如此奋不顾身

Eng Translation

A person is lonely, two people are happy

If the love I give you, make you sad

If you can, then please forget me

Love, the promise is not too much love, how such a selfless love you have

P.s I will ずっとう miss you to the end of the world..

Just wanna update this fews days what had happen within this fews days. Let me summaries it for you all, there is nothing much to say just a normal ITE life. A ITE life that I personally hate why you may ask, is because of the pain I had to bear the wrongs that I had done the pain that I had inflicted to a person. Im REALLY ほんとう ごめんね.

I like this song recently I was in a very bad mood that it happen that someone update this song on to Jpopasia.com maybe is fated that I would listen to this songs. And why I must have this kinda face why. I really dont like to have lots of guys surround me I just need someone friends who doesnt because of my face, or my cheerfulness then become my close friend and hoping to have me to stead with them. What I really need is a friend who doesnt mind every aspect of the personalties and willing being my friend who can share my pain.

I really miss the old times when people always bully me and not now one by one confessing their love. They are so simple-minded I not the girl they can mess with I can either bring them suffering, pain or I can bring them happiness, smile but if they want the happiness that I give they must pay a high price for it not everyone can bear it. NOT even one so I rather they dont fall me or else they will go crazy.

P.S. Missing you here..The ONLY ONE who succeed on paying the high price and also the only one who abandon me there at that critical time. Sorry for not being up to your standard. Sorry hope to see again maybe in poly ba..Will you wait for me..?

Just came back from ECP, feeling of updating this quite dead blog. Ha, you all must be wondering why I so late then came home ba..Everything started at yesterday in sch I was watching this manga then I got this sudden urge of crying. Cause reminds me about the past which I thought I had forgotten but just when I was reading halfway I suddenly cried furiously that was when I know that I just couldnt let it go so freely.

After sch, I sms Kel kor to talk after while he called and we talked from my sch till my house there. On the way I cried again, saying out all the true words from my bottom of heart to him and he comforted me by words of support. Reached home, bathe, ate my lunch and that was the time where I checked my phone. I saw this sms by Kel kor, he said his class BBQ at ECP and he also invited WeiXiong to skate at ECP so he asked me out.

Couple of hours later I went to prepare the things to ECP, bus-ed down to ECP in between I went lost in Singapore cause I either overslept in the bus or read book read till forgot to get down the bus but in the end I still managed to reach the meeting place. After meeting Kel kor at the bus stop at blk 72 we went down with some of his friends to ECP.

After reaching the BBQ pit, Kel kor and I went to Mac to find WeiXiong, after reaching Mac we went to skate. It was my first time learn to skate so I kept falling down actually while skating I suddenly understand while Kel kor wanna ask me to go ECP to skate with them it was because I was feeling very down so Kel kor and WeiXiong accompany me from 6++ to 10+.

Through this event WeiXiong and I became more closer to one another so should I say thanks to Kel kor that he brought WeiXiong down. Do you know I found my the another half-laogong.?When I was going to prepare to go home at 10, Kel kor and WeiXiong both volunteer to escort me to the bus stop to take bus home and that was the time where WeiXiong put his hand over my shoulder. When he heard that I cried in the afternoon he make adjustment some how it feels like he is caring me in a different way..

After that when we reached the bus stop honestly I was really cant bear to leave WeiXiong. Haa, just kidding I just cant bear Kel kor and WeiXiong..Haa..

NOTHING TO POST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hais, why my life is such a @#$%^..All I wanna is a very comfortable hug from someone..Is it so difficult to let me fulfill it..Why can someone tell me why yesterday i try to die the first person that came into my brain is him..WHY WHY WHY..I already promised someone that I will brainwash everything that happen the past and I will start anew..

Should I really brainwash everything or just brainwash everything but that one dont brainwash it..No i should not be like that need-ed to brainwash everything but the another person I really dont wanna forget he has been in my heart since we were in Pri 5, I really dont to forget him. It will become the pain in my heart..Do I really have to do this, is there any other way but this.?

I just wanna let everyone in this world know about this songs..

Suki De, Suki De, Suki De

This song's name, translate to eng is: I Love You, I Love You, I Love You

Recently this has become my favorite song..Like it..If you know what this song means you will love it even more..

P.s I really do love you please dont forget me..One day we will meet again, my forever 小恐龙. And the one who came into my mind when I was trying to die, dont look back I cant bear to see your face anymore. You always send me home when we were steading, you are always the one seeing my back but now let me the one seeing your back so promise dont look back.

Nothing much to post today..But I just wanna say thanks to Johnathan and Kelvin for yesterday; 25/09/10..Thanks for catching movie with me yesterday I really have lots of fun..Thanks..

Yesterday we were on msn for about 1-2hrs, we were chatting who wanna to catch a movie later on after lots of discussion only Johnathan, Kelvin and I were going to watch movie..We decided to watch The Shock Labyrinth:House of Horrors (3D) it was so awesome..Even though it was so scary but it is worth to watch..

I still remember that during the Kelvin even screamed..Haa..I should had capture that moment..haa..Then after the show we went to slack at the the nearest carpark to play True or Dare, yes, Haa.. Jonhathan even shout "I love you, Karen" when he choose the Dare..

Actually that day I was so bottled up about some things but after going out with them I feel better le..How I wish that we can go out like that again..

Hi readers, Imma back on blogging le, maybe is life in this class Imma in is getting more and more fun or should I say imma use to this kind of life.Being so emo at things easily maybe imma good in emo blog style ba..Just cant stop typing in such a emo style..

This fews weeks without any updating i actually had been thinking that how am I going to face this kinda world, life. I just dont used to the life without a friend who can really smile, know me so well that I dont need even say what Imma thinking at..How can anyone tell me how am I going to get rid this kinda pain in my heart..Talking to alots of friend which not much people really notice their presence in this world..

All they can really say is to follow my heart but if I listen to it I know it wont solve anything all I wanna is to cry out so loud that no one can hear..And recently I just got to close with Poh Seng, the feeling with him was so wonderful but I know now right now he is not the one. Cause the feeling wasnt the right one..

Finding lots of MV(mostly is sad,emo ones) but none seems the right one until recently I found this fews MV but I just wanna just let you hear this song hope you ally will love it:

this MV above some of you will feel that this melody is very familiar right, I do too but I dont know is which one..

Why must people fall in love? Why must guys have a affair even when they have a stead? Why must always be the girls forgive the guys when they have a affair? Why when the girls have a affair but the guys just wont even give a chance? Why Why Why?

Not all girls are so unfaithful, sometime is their personalities are different from others. I agree that yes our personalties like we are good with guys but it does means that we like to flirts. It is just our personalities you all guys cant ask us to change, if we change it it is just not us our true self.

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When you fall in love, you always wish for a long-lasting love but when there is a crack, you will always wish that you never want to fall for someone like him.

After breaking up, you always feel so regret that you were so reckless. But when you want to go back it is too late cause time cant turn back..

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There are too many misunderstanding between us..Hope that this video will manage to reach to you somehow..

Basically, this whole week I had been going for badminton with Kel, Johnny(bao bei er zi), C.C., Karen, Jia Jun. If I didnt remember wrongly on 16/08, I went badminton with Kel, Bao bei Er Zi and Jia Jun at a badminton court near my house.

We were having so much fun together, we chiong from 1pm till night 8pm just to play badminton together. We played like a bunch a crazy people..Haa but then it was my happiest day till Thurs; 19/08, again Kel, Bao Bei er zi, C.C, Karen and I went to play badminton at my house nearby but this time we played halfway there came a guy who say wanna compete with C.C.

That guy's badminton skills really is powerful, ermm the details I think I will pass.

Then the next day was so a coincidence that the guy and I met again at the playground near my house. And also we both were asked to take care of our siblings (Dots so a coincidence siol..Erm er zi ar, dont you ever think that the guy and I are compatible hor. ) and also we have quite alots of body contact. (haa..ermm I think I will just stop here..)

Today I was chiong my Pet Forest and also finding MV as I so long never go find le..Ya..later going to sleep le..

P.S.

我会在这里等你的，等到你的到来或者等到我找到爱我的那个人。

Hais i going to sleep soon as I was so shagged today after all those lesson, running, and also the modules.YA.. Then went home alone as PeiShi gotta go for her rehearsal for YOG so I went home alone.

Reach-ed home then chiong Pets Forest till 2231hrs..Hais aiya very shag liao tomorrow I happy liao cause only one lesson jiu can go home le..

KKK..gotta go sleep le..Muacks

P.S. :我以前那么的关心你，你为什么要和我分开能， 因为你我完全不能放下我们之间所有拥的回忆。已经四年了，我还是不能放开你的影印。你叫我真么办能？

Ok...Lets talk about yesterday ba..

6/08/10

Woke up around 8 in the morning, on fb, slack till around 9plus then went to prepare things for later going out with my best-st friend who had been my friend for 7years..Time do go so fast, just a blink of an eye everything just a swoop then disappear..

1045hrs I reach-ed lot1 to buy tickets to watch "Salt" and she reached at around 1120hrs so we walked back to the ground floor to buy ice-cream..Haa..Just imagine eating ice-cream in the cinema instead of eating popcorn..Dots..Then we went in the cinema at around 1130 as the show is starting..

After watching it was already 1320hrs le so we decided to go 313@ Somerset to shop..Reached there around 1400hrs plus, then we went to Forever 21 there to find clothes then Uniqlo..Haa talk about Uniqlo we went there like testing the clothes and of picture of it for our entertainment for the day. We also took picture of us wearing hats and sunglasses..Haa..But because of my phone so all the picture now is at my friend there.

After that was already 1600hrs plus so we train-ed back home, reached home around 1720hrs plus. Ate my dinner, bathe and relaxing by watching tv drama..

Haaa..Ya The ENd..

P.S：当时是你抛弃了我，你可别要跑回来找我。我是不会在同情你的！因为我现在已经不爱你了。你的一切我已经抛到我脑后了，我只能对你说声对不起和祝你生日因为我知道在你生日那天你应该不会想在听到我的声音和我的简讯把。

28/07/10

Went to sch as normal..Sch sch sch, in class fooling with my classmates like mad woman but is fun being with them as there isnt anything for me to think about. To me life without them is a torture cause without their support there wont be Joey here with you all. So what I wanna say is the Joey in the past had already die so meet the present Joey who is so hyper at time and she can be serious with you ya..

Ya, after that fooling around I went for my other lesson..BLAAAAAAAAAAA..Reach-ed home then went to bathe, study, watch show talk to friends on phone as my bro kept using my com since last month 28. Just then my sis itching hands went to play with my phone's games then my phone spoilt i really dont really know what to do then so went to told my father about this. After lots of "argument" then decided to repair my phone..Then went to sleep..

29/10/10

Went to sch as normal but is without listening to songs which is so weird to me. Reach-ed sch, meet laopo at event plaza eat breakfast with her at 7-11 then went down to shop-n-save to buy water. Then lesson all the way to 10plus(muacks to Mrs Adeline who always let us go early..Muacks to you), went to the Sony Erisson Repair de place then they say need to pay for 70-80bucks for the repair of my phone so I said dont need le. Cause I think is too ex le..As my cousin said he see he can buy me a new phone lor..Haa..Kor I hereby saying thanks to you in advance as you helped me alots..

Today early the morning woke up to went to CCK CC there for CIP..Yesterday my mum and I went to to wet market there to buy herbs, after buying we went home by bus as it is going to rain.Reached home brewed herbs and drunk tit soon after drinking it, I went to rest awhile.

Afternoon woke up to eat lunch then drunk the herbs again then watch some shows then back to sleep again. Till night woke up drink herbs but this time I didnt sleep, I watch the 730pm Channel U de shows till 9plus then brewed another pot of herbs to drink.

10plus my mum came back from work and she told me to brew another pot of another herbs to drink before going to sleep so I brewed and I drunk it.

This morning woke up my throat is getting better so went for the CIP..

Ok..let summaries the CIP Trip..Ok I got 5words to describe: Very Very Very Very Bored..

Now gotta go to look at my herbs..So next time When I got time I promise I will update..

Sorry for not continue updating yesterday cause suddenly fall sick having flu and sore throat(maybe is throat infection). So I yesterday went to rest and today early the morning went to buy strepsils..If after sunday still haven cure Im thinking of going to see a doc..

Ya..for now I will rest as much as possible as tomorrow I going for CIP..Hais hope that tomorrow will get better..

When I got the time to blog I will update de..So pls wait till that time..

Haa.. now rushing cause yesterday never using lappy to fb, find songs and of course blogging..

Yesterday,22/10/93

I went to sch per normal just that it rain and I had to walk.But then halfway to sch I decided to take bus as water keep slipping into my shoes with I 2days ago take it to dry till yesterday morning. So after that I waited for PeiShi at the bus stop but ended up she got down at the bus stop near keat hong lrt which I had to walk to there..

Reached sch, reached class, ENGESS hais some more is practical..OMG..but I using com haa and talked with samson they all so ended up I never really listen or do anything..After lesson helped teacher to rearrange the resistors..Then later on my "family" and I went to e-co to eat our lunch and then decided to catch a movie but ended my PeiShi's mum dont allow. So we decided to send PeiShi to BB mrt then go shop at west mall..

After that send Johnathan home, JiaJun and I went to lot1 to shop..Reached home at 3plus(pm), bath, relaxing myself, sleep at 9plus..

Today,23/07/10

Woke up at 3plus(am), use com as yesterday I never use so use for fb, finding songs for the talk into later in 8plus(am)..Fbing for awhile till weijun started to had a conversation with me so talked from FB to MSN for about 1hours plus..We talked quite alots from "n" to anything..Haa..Going to sleep for a little while as now is 0510 later gonna meet PeiShi at 7plus..Later after sch then continue rite..BB

Hii..Today Imma quite OMG..Today reached sch at around 720am then slack slack slack..till my girlfriend come then we two like mad women laughing like nobody business..

After that we went to class, quite ok cause I ended helping out on teaching those gtoslackamers actually I really dont mind teaching them cause at least they are willing to learn not like some people..

Then it was LifeSkills so boring so girlfriend and I (also of course my other family members and friends) went to BPP to slack..Till 1plus then we train-ed down back to sch for IFIA..Haa ended upI dont need to go as I got a reason..So I bus-ed as it was raining like hell after meeting with my sec teacher, I went to collect my contact lens.

Then met Salehan and his friends at SSP and he invited me to join him at the void deck later. So went home to bathe and then went down to my house void deck to meet Salehan..Haa..We were like one big bunch of crazy bastard and bitches slacking at the void deck..Slacking till 7 plus, "escort-ed" Nadiah to bus stop then I went to home..

The End..Haa..My story for today is so "pretty"..Haa..Laugh ar..Must laugh out loud hor..

Later Imma going to bring my siblings to their religious class..Hais yesterday sms my cousin later come down to lot one to lend me 18bucks but of course ask him to trat me breakfast lor..*shhhh*

I was thinking of waking up early so I could use com and watch shows but when I woke up I saw I saw my twins bro using my com to play games..Argggg..Then gotta wait till 7plus then they willing to it to me..

Life always is not fair

Dont always thinks that life is always

Yes, sometime life is fair at a angle

And sometime is not

So dont always thinks

That things will always come out as what

You have it to be..

I recently just come out that I had become more and more happier. And I now do smile more..Haaa..So do you agree with that sentence..?

Today as usual went to sch reach-ed sch around 7plus..Ate breakfast at 7-11 after that went to class at Blk1 level5 there for care lesson then after awhile jiu went to e-co there to accompany Papa they to eat end up PeiShi and I went to 7-11 there to buy drinks..

After that is IFIA today de lesson was like "OMG shit what I do? Why cant work? O.0 Sorry wrong codes ar..Haa.."*dots* Cant be blame ar cause I was like finding MV and fbing at the same time but at least I know how the codes works like font-family, font-size and all those shit stuff.

11plus my lesson finally end-ed but it was raining like freaking heavy ran to shop-and-save to see got umbrella while runing there I saw one got my pri friend; Roland Tang, he was the one who use to bully me but now everything was like fine talk-ed to him for awhile asking he is in which course and of course ask him where is JR. He said he also dont know where is JR now..Looks like nobody knows where his is whereabouts maybe I should stop looking for him.

How I wish that life isnt like that

When we were very desperate to find something/someone

But end up was nothing

Nothing is there for us to find

No clues

Just an empty space

How I wish that when I wanna find him/it/her

It/him/she is there when I need

It is same as loving someone

When you wanna love that person back

He/she just told you

Imma sorry I dont love you anymore

Then that is it

No more I love you

You love me

It is now you hate me

I hate you

And just keeping walking and

Walking forward..

Today went to sch as normal, reach-ed sch at around 7plus.Walked around while finding PeiShi then after we went to "tour" around the sch while killing time..

Around 8plus we started our lesson and end-ed our lesson around 11plus..(Thanks Mrs Adeline for letting us go so early.) After that we decided to watch Inception at Lot1 so we rush-ed down to watch..

After buying the tickets PeiShi and I went to buy banmian cause we will quite hungry but then we ate untill halfway they then say the show was going to start so end-ed up we rush-ed..After meeting the rest of the gang, went in to find our seats..

The shows is mainly about making dreams out of a dreams it is like many layers of dreams piled up another words is like hypothesizes..

PeiShi and I were in there laughing like nobody business..Keep laughing and moving around our seats..Haa.. We were like making alots of noise..After the show Johnathan and PeiShi went to back to sch for their fencing training, rest of the gang and me went home..

While walking home,I thought quite lots its is not about the shows is about another matter that keeps bugging me and I just cant stop thinking about it..I really hope that it is just my imagination it is not going to happen..

Noo it can not happen or else i really dont know what will happen next..And what tricks to use to make him stop thinking about me stop thinking that it is still hope for me and him..Noo Imma very sorry I really cant go back everything gotta go forward..

Life is like that once there is a mistake that cant be mended

gotta move on and remember not to make the same mistake

anymore..Cause if it happen again they will get hurt again

and the pain the injuries will be double..So just let it go..

Dont look back anymore..

Haa..I think Imma so long never update so here am I updating for a while as later my brother gonna use it for his "gaming"..

Life is like that it can makes you feel that something is missing

It can also make you feel that everything that we used to have

disappear into thin air

But then there always something in return when you lose

something and it will always be something incredible

Like someone who used lose her very beloved one

But in return she got something her never have

And that is the love of her friends

They never leave her alone even when she is going through

the bad times of her beloved had left her

That why people who have such a strong friendship

isnt that easy be pull down

That is what I believe in cause I believe that even there isnt someone who like/love me
I will still be strong and go on with my lives..

Haa..Let me summaries what happen for this week..

My lappy kena spoilt by something that I also dont know at all..But fews days later my bro help me repair by reformat my all com and ended up all my downloaded shows, MV, movies all GONE..

But then if is for the sake of repairing my com that I lose all those stuff I think is worth it cause if not my lappy might be spoilt til now. So gotta be grateful that my lappy is OK..

Recently after my lappy is ok my bro keep on using it for his leisure and as for me i did use it too much so maybe finding some time to find MVs and shows(maybe finding some funny shows).

OK..now I got nothing to summaries le..Now wanna find shows and MV..Bye..And maybe changing my blogskins..cause it looks so unglam..so sorry I gotta change it again..

Hi, Imma back..Lets me talk about my day today..kkk..

Today woke up at 630 then do the daily stuff till 7plus after that went out to eat my breakfast. Lesson starts at 8 so reached sch at around 7plus going 8 and I starting to see all my BPGHS classmate(one-by-one)..1st lesson: ENGESS aka Engineering Essentials (so the OMG) but then the worse was that the life skills teaching all those craps PeiShi and ME were like fooling around for the past 1hour i think..

After that it was our 1hr break so Papa, Jiejie, all my sons and of course me decided to go to 2nd floor food court to eat but end up is FULL so we went to 3rd floor and it was ALSO FULL..At the end we went to 7-11 to have our lunch and we ate quite lots but before that while we were walking to 7-11 I saw "N" and his classmates cum CCA buddies sit-ing there chatting seeing his face was like Err I dont know how to describe that kind of mixed feeling..Damn it making my day worse but then I never forget that there are still friends and gan-family are there for me cheering me up..So SMILE..

After that the 3rd lesson: Again the life skills; 4th lesson and also is the last lesson for the day: IFID(I think that how we say ba..) is about HTML the lesson as what my friend had said for those who do blog will think it is easy..hais bro, must be humble ar.. After that thinking of oing home, myself but that samson la said what he wanna accompany me home die die must accompany home so I anything lor walking at my usual speed..Laaaaaa..

Reached at my house nearby petrol station as samson bike kena tamper by someone while we were in sch studying so we reached there and he went to pump air to his bike..After that he insisted of sending me to my house downstairs..

The End ..

So how is my story today?...Interesting..?

Haa..Now Imma in sch, hais 1st day in sch so tried but then quite good cause start late end also late *dots*...In sch using com till now in the mean time aslo using for my leisure.. Haa..ok..I know very lame and boring rite..

So I just found a song and its lyics is very touching:

Your hair flowing in the wind,

the gentle rays of the sun,

the same scenery of that day,

just without you who smiled and said,

"You control your own destiny."

The great heartache that I will go through,

someday not being able to see the one I love;

and that's life.

Anything satisfying is nowhere to be found within

my memories.

I love you;

I'm in so much pain;

I want to cry all day and night.

Even now, I can't forget you;

you won't disappear from my heart.

My overflowing emotions are being engulfed by the

heavens.

No longer reachable, they are now like wandering rays

of light without a star.

To come to one's senses after a dream has ended,

people move on my forgetting the past.

Alone, I am hoping for a rendezvous that will not accept

this belief.

I'm unable to erase the promises we shared,

old wounds, and recollections of us embracing,

even if my heart isn't ready for pictures from long ago to

lose their luster.

Everybody becomes mature after experiencing pain.If

that time is now,

I will take another step forward and express my feelings.

I will take a look back at my footsteps that have spread

out over the sands of time,

open that door, and say that the moments we spent together

were great until that moment.After losing something that is

really important, people will feel like they can no longer live.

But after all, people can't go on living without that important

thing in their lives.By loving another person we are assuring

ourselves, and the beating of our hearts scream out;

they scream out that we are alive.I loved, I loved,

I loved those times we spent together too much.

The sound that burns my heart,

I have been listening to from within our embrace.

My overflowing emotions are being engulfed by the heavens.

No longer reachable,

they are now like wandering rays of light without a star.

The song is very very touching and hope everything will be the same like before..And cause hope to see all my BPGHS classmates.. Haaa..Hoping tooo...

Haa..finish changing blogskins..I next time wont play with the codes le..So ma fan..

Haaaa..I kept playing with my blogskin till now it looks like shits..now gotta change a new ones..

Bleahs..waa I so long never update blog le..OK HERE I GO..

This fews days had been going to my uncle's workplace to work but then is doing all those admin stuff so there isnt nothing much to do in there just sitting in there letting the air-con to calm my self down maybe thinking of reading some books to kill time as my working hours is till 6 plus.

22/06/10

Then today went to bishan to wait for my uncle to fetch me to the workplace as yestreday was my father's friend fetch me there. While waiting for my uncle my cousin morning call me to chat then we were chatting like siao keep lixiao one another like nobody bussiness keep say ing fcking here fcking there..haaa.

Then what happen after that I wont say much, when I reached the workplace I went to the 5th floor to open the door as I has the key(spare keys haa). I got in there I started to do my stuff from washing the cups that yesterday my uncle and his clients' drunk de cups..(so ma fan) After that finished off what I stopped yesterday.

After doing everthing I went to fb for awhile then I got hooked up so continue to find jpop stuff haa.JPOP JPOP JPOP JPOP JPOP JPOP JPOP..Ok back to the topic then after jpoping go find some relevant stuff to help my uncle to change his PDF to word doc. After that I help to cut somethings and help to rearrange some stuff..hais I know you all read until sian liao rite I also sian liao, watch shows la, fbing la, blogging la..I really wanna siao liao..Waa must tahan till this fri I think.

21/06/10

Haa..my first day at my uncle workplace working gotta leran alots of stuff..OMG nia head gotta burst to the floor le.Later on went to have my lunch with my uncle, auntie and the admin before she went back to malaysia in the night.After eating, I took my uncle's car back to the workplace.

After that I went to continue my stuff till 6plus, after that I went to my uncle's house to eat dinner not long jiu took his car back home..

THE END

now Im home sweet home as those up there was typed at my uncle's office there..Haa..Now gonna do other things as my uncle asked me to help my father to see his email..Hais gotta do alots of things..How I wanna slow down my pace for now as I think I had been walking for so long and also walked very fast..

Now wanna read some Jpop news before bathing and other do other stuff..Good nites..

PS: Hoping one day I could see White Tiger..Hais so cute of that guy..I know I write like this my sons will confirm want this white tiger to be their father..Hais..

Today woke up early in the morning just to woke my sis up cause she got to go for her religious activities at somewhere in Singapore. So I woke up at 6plus then my sis and I went down to SSP to eat our breakfast.

After eating we walked to the location that they wanted my sis to meet them.On the way there my mum called and said that we are late as my sis got the wrong timing.Lucky, one of the personel-in-charge said that the bus haven come yet.

So we rushed the the location at 7plus then my sis went to find her friends while I sat at a the void deck and I caught someone very familiar.After thinking for while I suddenly remembered, the person was the guy who I last year went out with my sis's religious class as that time I was bored so I agreed that I will be going and that was the time got to know some guys.I still remembered that that time I still call him "White Tiger" as he was quite white and his mouth is so big..Haa..

He was quite nice to me at that time we talked, played together.It was like a couple living in their own world.But that was quite long ago.After sometime my mum came down to find me and we were having mother-and-daughter talk till the bus came.Then later that we walked home together.

At 6plus I went down to that place where I escorted my sis to the bus area to wait for her.Waited and waited till it was already 7plus then the bus came.After that my sis and I went to Mr Bean to buy drinks and ice-cream.That was the time where "white tiger"and his friends came along(but they never wait for us la.), he and his friend went to the Mrt station but I knew that he never went straight to the Mrt cause I remember that he was just behind us so he should be already be in front iof us but he was like after my sis and I bought our things then he then went home..

Haa..I know today I say alots and it is damn long la..Sorry ma..that is my day today..Are you all happy for me..Haa..

Hi..bakbak...I now back to blogging for a while now at home watching jdorema "Fuma No Kojiro"..Have been watching for quite some time..

Actually is a few dayts ago I was like looking for some website for jdorema and then I found this website iidrama.com. It was like is fated that I will find this website..The website is quite interesting, it got alots of shows than mysoju.com. Hais..dont wanna say too much later my show will say BYE BYE..haaa..

ER ZI: Mummy will be back to normal when sch reopen so be patience to see mummy be hyper as before..

PAPA: Nuer will be fine de.Nuer promise you will be happy and hyper.OK..Muacks..

Recently I read a book and I found this phase quite interesting so I translate it into english: "Jealously can make a person get the pleasure of temporary segment, but also make misfortune more fortunate."

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Missing days with my closet friends and my dearest darlings er zi(s).Missing you all..Mummy really wanna see you all soon.And mummy now waiting for your new PaPa..Hais but then I still cant find him anywhere le..Missing him alots alots.Every single day missing him..I starting to start back to love xiao kong long or maybe all this time I never stop loving him is I just wanna cover up the feeling for him..Now just wanna think about do I really wanna go back with him..

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I really miss you, JR,My dearest Jun Rong(aka Xiao Kong Long).I really regret letting you go.

Haa..Today was such a dull day. Woke up in the morning to watch anime, ate breakfast later on went out to Causeway Point to shop from 12plus to 1plus.After that felt quite hungry so went to find somewhere to eat and end up went to Lot1 to eat my lunch.

After eating went to Comics Connection end up saw one of my Jie at there working.So I talked to her till 4plus.We were like talking about guys, she talked about some guys who once worked with once before.She showed me the photos, those guys looks so cute..(OMG..They looks better than some guys I once stead with.But honestly speaking most of my stead looks more better.Cause of their personalties, going out with some guys the best is to know more about the personalities of a guy.Dont look out for guys who only have the looks but dont have the inner beauty.As for me, I look out for guys with both looks and inner beauty but sometime I just wanna destress so I will any how go out with guys but then I wont give in everything.Unless they manage to open my heart.Haa but then it is quite difficult.)

haa..going to end post le..Xiao Kong Long hope that one day we will meet.

Haa..Today is a BIG DAY for me as today is one of my sec sch, kok hui's birthday. This morning when I wake up, I went to eat my breakfast then went to continue watching shows from where I stopped yesterday. Watched till my mum asked me to accompany her to buy some garments at Lot1.

Went down with her while walking there we talked quite alots but deep down in me I still wondering whether will I meet xiao kong long.But still nope He didnt appear but then days still needs to go on so now the only thing is to be patience.I believe that one day I will see him again. After shopping with my mum at Lot1, we went to eat as it already going to noon.After eating we went home by bus.Reached home(phew..finally.*leg pain*), rested for while then rushed down to meet sam(didi aka part-time bf *laugh..* jk), alicina, kelvin, YJH and liting to go Kok Hui house.

*tick tok* Reached Kok Hui house, we keep making fun of one another, taking photo with on another and all sorts of stuff( I really do love the days we spend today..With one another like we were in the past).After awhile kelvin and the rest went home as they wanna prepared for the k-box later in the evening.Last min, kelvin and didi went to play arcade while waiting for alcina (haa actually is didi wanna meet alcina cause maybe this is what I think maybe is didi miss alcina that why why he say he wanna wait for her. When I see this, my heart just feel a sharp pain but I know this has nothing to do with nico is somehow is about xiao kong long.Maybe too miss him le ba.Haa).

Later awhile Adeline, WanZhen and one of their friend came to Kok Hui house, then I kept shooting Adeline until she cant take it anymore.Haa so fun hope that on my birthday they wont come for a revenge.Haa..Shooting time over, then we were like very sian so we all slack till around 5-6plus then go home but at that time didi already went home to sleep.

Reached home around 6plus, slack until now.Hais maybe this is what life is all about,about smiling, crying, laughing, socializing with friends but no anyone knows that being with friends is still not enough.There still left one more thing and that is a someone who knows who to dote, love and care for you till they die.A someone who knows how to make you laugh like never before, makes you feel a sense of security when you are with him/her.Some people manage to find it but some cant find it no matter how hard they try it still didnt work.That is life.Nobody knows what will happen tomorrow or the day after or in the future.So just live up your life to the fullest..

haa..So late then upadate blog..Sorry, buzy watching shows cause I cant sleep now going to sleep soon..Life had to go on so love had to begone or stay at the place..

Hais..today is just a day of being trapped at home again..Nothing to do so went to watch shows at home..Haa I just dont why when I become single the first person I will think of you, Jun Rong.Even I dont remember your face but I will remember your kindness, love toward me when we will young.You maybe forgot everything about us, your happy days but I wont.You may forgot everything but now what I really want is to see you again just one more time.

I do miss you, Im sorry for that time I being too quiet Im just not like vivian.She is very happy and she could make you laugh also she is good in everything.Im just not maybe this is what makes you left me.At first, Im very angry but now Im not and I will had been reminding myself no matter what or who I go stead with I wont forget you..So here Im waiting to see you again hope you happen to see this blog and will come to find me..

Just remember you are always my xiao kong long.No body can replace you no body not even nico and those people who stead with me before..Also that sch bus de friend you should had already knew who is that rite..

Waiting for you is very tiring de..So dont let me wait too long..Jun rong,my xiao kong long, I had been asking PS to help me to look out for you so I could find you more easily..What I can do is to wait for you..Even when Im dreaming i still dreaming of you, I dream of you cycle me to sch, accompany me to eat, cycle me home from sch, weekend goes out to chat, goes out to play and alots of stuff..I just wanna see you again , recently I already met some of our pri sch friends le.

I really will be waiting for you even I had a stead, I still will be waiting for you..

Sorry that I now then update blog as I this few days kept watching shows..Hais today went to sch for exams from 9.30 to 4plus..Ok I wont talk in details cause I dont really wanna say alots..Wanna continue watch my shows..Actually, when I reached home for awhile my uncle told me(indirectly) that he want me to help him in his work during my holiday..Hais cause one of his worker not feeling well so he need someone to answer phone.I think is some admin stuff ba..

Haaa..going to watch my shows le..Gotta go..bye..

Haa..I wont talk about my yesterday what happen but what Im now going to say is that no matter what happen in the future i will only be with my trusted ones and those who deserve my trust..

So now Im going to watch a drama in my com..so bye..maybe blogging later at night ba..

Ok now I just say abit what what happen today then tomorrow I will say in details as later my bro will be using my com to play Cabal..

Today afternoon went down to amk to meet my cousin to talk after that around 3,4 plus i went home as I was in the train back to cck I saw a couple were so close that I was so envy of them..But then everything is gone no use bother what all things shit..

KK..My bro is coming back le..Going to end for now.. Tomorrow morning will update it more in details..kk..

Ping Ping..Today is public holiday for the whole Singapore..Hais..Now Im here to delicate this song "Days" sing by Ayumi Hamasaki to those people who feel the same as me "Being single is too lonely."

But let me tell you this morning,yes I did very that way, no I should say all this time yes Im indeed very lonely being single. But then after I had listen to this song dont feel that way anymore cause I know there are still people out there willing to love me for who Im and there will be someone who willing to stay by my side..So be patience and for the time being as do remember there are still friends who are willing to lend their shoulder for you to cry on when we feel like wanna cry.

So let listen to this song below and forget all those unhappy things and ya..Forget the past is the most important..Just cherish the things that is in the present because once is gone it will never come back anymore..

Translation

Nanigenaku kawashiteru( Each one of the words )

kotoba no hitotsu hitotsu ga( you nonchalantly speak)

bokuni tottewa totemo( to me are all)

daijina takaramono( a very precious treasure)

dakedo jibunndemonandaka( But even I find that)

hazukashiikuraidakara( embarrassing)

kimiga shittara kitto( so surely if you knew this)

warawarechaudarou( you would laugh)

aitakute aitakute semete koega kikitakute( Wanting to see you, wanting to see you)

youmonaku denwa shitari( or at least to listen to your voice)

kimi ga iru soredakede( So without having any reason, I call you my heart becomes so warm)

kokoro ga totemo atatakakunaru( Just by you being there)

bokuno negaiwa( And my wish)

tatta hitotsudake( is only one)

sou konna fuuni itsumademo( Is it ok if I keep)

kimiwo sukina mamade iteiidesuka?( loving you this way?)

Taisetsuna hitoga iru( You have someone special already)

kotowa mou zutto maekara shitteiruyo( I've known that for a while)

datte egaoga kagayaiteru( because your smile is shining so)

setsunakute setsunakute( It is painful, so painful)

munega gyutto naruyorumo( and my chest feels crushed but)

tashikanine arukeredo( It is certainly there)

kimi wo omou soredakede( Just by thinking about you)

kokorowa ikiru imi wo motsukara( my heart finds a reason to live)

nanikawo motometeiru wakejyanakute( so it's not like I'm expecting something)

tada konna fuu ni( just to know if it is ok)

itsumademo( if)

kimino sukina boku de iteii desuka?( I stay this person you admire?)

Aitakute aitakute semete koega kikitakute( Wanting to see you, wanting to see you)

youmo naku denwashitari( or at least to listen to your voice)

Kimi ga iru soredakede( So without having any reason, I call you)

kokoro ga totemo( Just by you being there)

atatakakunaru( Just by you being there)

boku no negai wa( my heart becomes really warm)

tatta hitotsudake( My wish is only one)

kimi wo sukina mamade isasete( please let me keep loving you)

Kimi wo omou soredakede( Just by thinking about you)

kokoro wa ikiru imiwo motsukara( my heart finds a reason to live)

Nanika wo motometeru wakejyanakute( so it's not like I'm expecting something)

tada konna fuuni itsumademo( just to know if it is ok)

Kimi wo sukina bokude iteiidesuka?( if I stay loving you like this?)

Haa.. This song damn nice sia..Of course this is a J-POP and it is sing by ARASHI..*Bling Bling*

One of my favorite boy-band in j-pop..haa..Please enjoy it..Dont worry only the Chosen One can see my blog and watch all the mv/shows that I put up here..

Everything had just stopped and I just wanna go back with your my gans so..Papa, Jie Jie, Da Er Zi, Second Er Zi and Xiao Er Zi..Mummy is back..Haa..Now gonna be fun when Im hyper and I promise that I will be smiling as wide as possible..Muacks to all my gans that never left me when Im not happy and trying your very best to let me forget all the unhappiness in me..

Promise you all now I only believe in you all and not others..Felicia and Huayi..You all I wont forget de..I will also believe you..Please dont make me stop trusting you all..OK..

Hais going to study now..Ending post..

Ping Ping..Today I have nothing to comment about but today choon chee said something that really makes to agree with him totally as is about that video RS post in fb..We were like saying about alots of things that "N" did..That really ermm..I dont know how to describe in words ermm piss out..Haa..

To: Unknown

Thanks for yesterday as it is nothing about the things we said, the way you acted in msn is like ermm..Cute..Haa..Ermm ya..I know you gonna say "Why today your post seems so short." but let me say it in advance..Is because I today got nothing to say and nothing to comment about my day in sch as today there is nothing to say..Hais if everyday is like that then I think my blog can die earlier liao as everyday also got nothing to say, comment about..

Ermm ya..wanna ask you for some opinion on some things.. Starting at first, after this girl and her boyfriend broke up. They went separate ways but then one day the boyfriend went back to her for patch so of course that girl agree.

One day the girl found out that that boyfriend actually two-timer her as he was quite close to a girl who was working at the same workplace as that boyfriend.So eventually the girl thought for a long time and decided to let go of him and at the same time she was already had untie her that knot in her heart but after that incident she was so upset and angry at herself why she now then untie her knot and not before.

After alots of things piled up and that boyfriend so called twisted the story makes it seems like everything is that girlfriend faults(not that third-party) that they ended like that..And make all his friends thought is that girlfriend that betrayed his trust for her.All his friends one by one scolded her until upside down..Make until her decided to quit her cca just because of all those insults and the psychological effects that they impact onto her.

So what do you personally think of this? After you had thought about it tell me your answer either by my chatbox, msn or both also can..?

So I now going gto end this post by going to bathe and eat my dinner..Bye..

Ping Ping..Today went to sch as normal.Reached sch, I went to eat my breakfast alone.Lucky that "N" haven reached sch yet.After eating went to class for lesson..Aiya..Let me cut short..*blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa*

Then after sch went home with my "second er zi", but then he keep li xiao me sia..Saying what "Unknown" will become their father..Hais "er zi" ar..Mami, now dont want to find Papa..Cause Mami now feel that now is the best for me to rest..Mami promise you mami will find one in the future de..KK..

Reached home lend my lappy to my siblings to study after that went to play LC..Play for about 1, 2 hrs then went to blog, fb, watch anime..Haa..Dont why leh this fews weeks, in sch I choose what com the com surely isnt is spoilt, no flash player or no mouse..Hais wish that the new campus isnt like that or else I will gone crazy..Haa..

Ermm..I would like to say thanks to this person "Unknown".Thanks for being there for me even though we arent related by anything but thanks anyway cause do you still remember 19/05, that day I was so damn emo. You were just suddenly talked to me and trying to cheer me up by keeping talking to me and commenting my post..The truth is that at first I really think that you were very annoying but slowly I started to feel that you are quite nice and honestly speaking that I found that I started to depend on you to give my "light" to my world, my world of darkness..Hoping that you will keep talking to me so I wont be so emo..Really..Feeling that you are my light to world, you arent like the others. What you give out is more than a friend could give..Hope you one day will tell me, your real name, your sch, your EVERYTHING..Hope that there will be that day..

Ping Ping..Today my lesson is at 9am..Hais I totally forgot that Im meeting RS at BK at 7plus and I slept all the way till 7plus..Then later sms him saying that I just woke up while typing I change my clothes to my uniform..Went down to take mrt to BK..Reach BK, walked to sch.Then actually wanted to eat in sch but then when I saw "N" and his friends, I just dont feel like eating but then lucky I saw one of my "er zi" asked him wheather want to eat with me. Then he agree to eat with me so we ate our breakfast together and talked alots of things..

Went into class as the class was already started for about 15mins. I was liked half-asleep in class but then I still got listen to what teacher wanted to teach us..Later on went to accompany RS till his next lesson but I was so bored till I accompany him till about 12plus but his next lesson starts at 1pm..

Went home with my "second er zi", we took train from BK as our sch (ITE Balestier) is at BK..Hais but never mind my sch is going to move to CCK mega campus le..So I just endure for the next fews days in ITE Balestier..Yep..Going to endure..In the train I was sleeping like a log, reach CCK. I went to buy drinks while walking back home..Reach home, use com to kill time so I fbing, blogging, watching anime..

Hais life is like that when we were studying, we will think that my time went so slow but when we were playing, we will think that time went so fast..

But who knows that when we put this 2 together time will go SUPERRRRRRRRR normal..Haa..Hoping that there will really be someone who knows how to appreciate me, love me, dote me more than anyone do..

I dont know when that person will come..Is it now or later or in the near future or there wont be any..Only will appear in my dreams..

Haa..Today nothing to much to say..Just a normal Sunday..Finding songs, MV, all sorts of stuff..Fbing too..Finding MMORG games to play..Hais really much to say..Only thing that is not normal is I today update blog very early..Haa..Cause I got nothing to do so update early hais..

Ohya..as I promise that every week I will update the week Oricon Top 1 songs..This week TOP Oricon is Going by KAT-TUN..Please enjoy this MV..It is newest album which came out in May 12..Hope You will like it..

Ping Ping..Today is just a normal Saturday for me..Sleep for 11hrs, woke up ate breakfast then on com to play games.Fbing and find songs..

Why must be relationship that will hurts feeling of others? Why does there be 3rd party in a relationship? Why there must be true love that is not true love at all? Why,Why Why..There are too many why in this world of darkness, a world of lies.

There should be only truth nothing but truth between couples.A world of no lies.Haa..I know it wont be there, it will only be a dream of mine that this world will change to a world I want it to be..

Just remember I will always be there for you.. Haa..This past few days, got this "Unknown"in my chat box..Haa..this person(dont know is a guy or a girl)quite ermm..I dont know cause no one who I dont know will talk to me in my chatbox and this person die die also dont let me know who is he/she is..So mysterious but I like it that kind of feeling that someone is out there looking,watching me..Is so ermm mixed feeling..Haa..Ok "Unknown" I promise I will be happy..Haa..Hope you will keep talking to me through my chatbox..kk..Promise me kk..

Loving someone that I know that is impossible is best to forget about and keep waking forward dont look back even it might bring back some sweet memories.Just walk forward maybe you will never know you might get or know some one who love, care and dotes you more than that guy/girl do. So dont give up hope that someone will loves you more than he loves anyone else..And I do hope that someone will knows how precious Im.. And I also hope that you all will like this 2 mv.. Good nights..

Ping Ping..Today went to sch as normal..Nothing much..

Why do people always like that..Act like they dont give a damn but they do..Why do you want to do this to me, I know I isnt like others girls have good attitude, nice figure or what so ever.That is me, if you dont like it why do you want to be with me..Hey dont you think that you are so BASTARD even though you got good point but do you know you really sucks to the core.

Hey love isnt a game maybe to you this kind of rich kids love is just a game of rich kids playing with those poor kids' feeling. But do you know that one day people will do it to you in the future maybe not now but when you think you had found your true love then you will know that that person is just playing with your feeling like what you did to those people in the past..

So wake up or else you will fall even deeper into that pit..Im now saying all this isnt wanting you bacck or what is wanting you think carefully of the path that you wanna choose..Do you really wanna do it, think carefully do you really want this..Be like that toying with people feelings..

Im not..Past, Present and Future, Im not..You think Im but IM not..I know Loving Someone Isnt A Game But Is Process Of Making Love..Hard to understand right but even you think carefully you will know what I meant..

Haa..ending post..Going to let my siblings to play their games..Bye and Good Night..

Ping Ping..Even though today got went down to sch but then today is just go down for the Navel Base Open House..Went down to sch as normal..Reach BK,sms RS that I reach le then he say going to reach le..While waiting I went to buy sweets..Haaaa..*Yummy*..

Then RS and I went to sch with ZhiDa, he so damn noisy sia..Reach sch, slack for awhile jiu went to find lao ba (Choo Chee).After awhile we EL1001A (mini class as only a few of us came down), went to the place, Changi Navel Base, go with some of my classmates and my CA,MR Christopher Ong. After that we went to see to the ship, then went to eat..Haa.. Then when the time struck 12..We went to the checkpoint to take the bus that the Navel Base provides for us..At that time we thought that we just go to the check point then jiu can go home but then when we reach there, we then knew that we need to wait for your turn to take..

So we queued for about 1hrs plus for our turn to the bus back to sch.While we were waiting surprisingly I saw my cousin,Shi Jie..Haa..Then when we met each other eyes we were so shocked to see each other..Then later on he aboard the bus after few mins was our turn so I slept in the bus till we reach sch,RS woke me up..

After that rushed home to change my uniform to home clothes as I was going to help out to give out pamphlet to the residents of Teck Whye Lane..After giving out I went home..Reach home use com to play games..And now,2115hrs, I blogging as I dont want to lose any of my memories of my past..

Ending Now..

Ping Ping..Today it is just a normal Wednesday sch day for me..Going to sch, seeing my friends, playing in class with my gans, how i wonder will this kind of life be forever even we arent together when we went up to poly..Today had been a very hard day..i dont feel like talking in details..

Reach home, I keep studying untill now, 2222hrs, still haven finish studying as I kept watching shows and fbing..Maybe tonging for awhile to finish my studys for today..

bye..ending post now..

why..why..do i still feel that Im lacking of something..What is that thing that Im lacking of..What the hell is that thing that Im lacking of..Why when I m alone I will feel that there is something that is lacking..Cant stay happy.Always keep moody easily..What is that thing..HA..I finally found it..Im lack of a touch..A hug..A very warm and loving hug..For the time being I will hug myself if I want to..