Haa..I wont talk about my yesterday what happen but what Im now going to say is that no matter what happen in the future i will only be with my trusted ones and those who deserve my trust..

So now Im going to watch a drama in my com..so bye..maybe blogging later at night ba..

Ok now I just say abit what what happen today then tomorrow I will say in details as later my bro will be using my com to play Cabal..

Today afternoon went down to amk to meet my cousin to talk after that around 3,4 plus i went home as I was in the train back to cck I saw a couple were so close that I was so envy of them..But then everything is gone no use bother what all things shit..

KK..My bro is coming back le..Going to end for now.. Tomorrow morning will update it more in details..kk..

Ping Ping..Today is public holiday for the whole Singapore..Hais..Now Im here to delicate this song "Days" sing by Ayumi Hamasaki to those people who feel the same as me "Being single is too lonely."

But let me tell you this morning,yes I did very that way, no I should say all this time yes Im indeed very lonely being single. But then after I had listen to this song dont feel that way anymore cause I know there are still people out there willing to love me for who Im and there will be someone who willing to stay by my side..So be patience and for the time being as do remember there are still friends who are willing to lend their shoulder for you to cry on when we feel like wanna cry.

So let listen to this song below and forget all those unhappy things and ya..Forget the past is the most important..Just cherish the things that is in the present because once is gone it will never come back anymore..

Translation

Nanigenaku kawashiteru( Each one of the words )

kotoba no hitotsu hitotsu ga( you nonchalantly speak)

bokuni tottewa totemo( to me are all)

daijina takaramono( a very precious treasure)

dakedo jibunndemonandaka( But even I find that)

hazukashiikuraidakara( embarrassing)

kimiga shittara kitto( so surely if you knew this)

warawarechaudarou( you would laugh)

aitakute aitakute semete koega kikitakute( Wanting to see you, wanting to see you)

youmonaku denwa shitari( or at least to listen to your voice)

kimi ga iru soredakede( So without having any reason, I call you my heart becomes so warm)

kokoro ga totemo atatakakunaru( Just by you being there)

bokuno negaiwa( And my wish)

tatta hitotsudake( is only one)

sou konna fuuni itsumademo( Is it ok if I keep)

kimiwo sukina mamade iteiidesuka?( loving you this way?)

Taisetsuna hitoga iru( You have someone special already)

kotowa mou zutto maekara shitteiruyo( I've known that for a while)

datte egaoga kagayaiteru( because your smile is shining so)

setsunakute setsunakute( It is painful, so painful)

munega gyutto naruyorumo( and my chest feels crushed but)

tashikanine arukeredo( It is certainly there)

kimi wo omou soredakede( Just by thinking about you)

kokorowa ikiru imi wo motsukara( my heart finds a reason to live)

nanikawo motometeiru wakejyanakute( so it's not like I'm expecting something)

tada konna fuu ni( just to know if it is ok)

itsumademo( if)

kimino sukina boku de iteii desuka?( I stay this person you admire?)

Aitakute aitakute semete koega kikitakute( Wanting to see you, wanting to see you)

youmo naku denwashitari( or at least to listen to your voice)

Kimi ga iru soredakede( So without having any reason, I call you)

kokoro ga totemo( Just by you being there)

atatakakunaru( Just by you being there)

boku no negai wa( my heart becomes really warm)

tatta hitotsudake( My wish is only one)

kimi wo sukina mamade isasete( please let me keep loving you)

Kimi wo omou soredakede( Just by thinking about you)

kokoro wa ikiru imiwo motsukara( my heart finds a reason to live)

Nanika wo motometeru wakejyanakute( so it's not like I'm expecting something)

tada konna fuuni itsumademo( just to know if it is ok)

Kimi wo sukina bokude iteiidesuka?( if I stay loving you like this?)

Haa.. This song damn nice sia..Of course this is a J-POP and it is sing by ARASHI..*Bling Bling*

One of my favorite boy-band in j-pop..haa..Please enjoy it..Dont worry only the Chosen One can see my blog and watch all the mv/shows that I put up here..

Everything had just stopped and I just wanna go back with your my gans so..Papa, Jie Jie, Da Er Zi, Second Er Zi and Xiao Er Zi..Mummy is back..Haa..Now gonna be fun when Im hyper and I promise that I will be smiling as wide as possible..Muacks to all my gans that never left me when Im not happy and trying your very best to let me forget all the unhappiness in me..

Promise you all now I only believe in you all and not others..Felicia and Huayi..You all I wont forget de..I will also believe you..Please dont make me stop trusting you all..OK..

Hais going to study now..Ending post..

Ping Ping..Today I have nothing to comment about but today choon chee said something that really makes to agree with him totally as is about that video RS post in fb..We were like saying about alots of things that "N" did..That really ermm..I dont know how to describe in words ermm piss out..Haa..

To: Unknown

Thanks for yesterday as it is nothing about the things we said, the way you acted in msn is like ermm..Cute..Haa..Ermm ya..I know you gonna say "Why today your post seems so short." but let me say it in advance..Is because I today got nothing to say and nothing to comment about my day in sch as today there is nothing to say..Hais if everyday is like that then I think my blog can die earlier liao as everyday also got nothing to say, comment about..

Ermm ya..wanna ask you for some opinion on some things.. Starting at first, after this girl and her boyfriend broke up. They went separate ways but then one day the boyfriend went back to her for patch so of course that girl agree.

One day the girl found out that that boyfriend actually two-timer her as he was quite close to a girl who was working at the same workplace as that boyfriend.So eventually the girl thought for a long time and decided to let go of him and at the same time she was already had untie her that knot in her heart but after that incident she was so upset and angry at herself why she now then untie her knot and not before.

After alots of things piled up and that boyfriend so called twisted the story makes it seems like everything is that girlfriend faults(not that third-party) that they ended like that..And make all his friends thought is that girlfriend that betrayed his trust for her.All his friends one by one scolded her until upside down..Make until her decided to quit her cca just because of all those insults and the psychological effects that they impact onto her.

So what do you personally think of this? After you had thought about it tell me your answer either by my chatbox, msn or both also can..?

So I now going gto end this post by going to bathe and eat my dinner..Bye..

Ping Ping..Today went to sch as normal.Reached sch, I went to eat my breakfast alone.Lucky that "N" haven reached sch yet.After eating went to class for lesson..Aiya..Let me cut short..*blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa*

Then after sch went home with my "second er zi", but then he keep li xiao me sia..Saying what "Unknown" will become their father..Hais "er zi" ar..Mami, now dont want to find Papa..Cause Mami now feel that now is the best for me to rest..Mami promise you mami will find one in the future de..KK..

Reached home lend my lappy to my siblings to study after that went to play LC..Play for about 1, 2 hrs then went to blog, fb, watch anime..Haa..Dont why leh this fews weeks, in sch I choose what com the com surely isnt is spoilt, no flash player or no mouse..Hais wish that the new campus isnt like that or else I will gone crazy..Haa..

Ermm..I would like to say thanks to this person "Unknown".Thanks for being there for me even though we arent related by anything but thanks anyway cause do you still remember 19/05, that day I was so damn emo. You were just suddenly talked to me and trying to cheer me up by keeping talking to me and commenting my post..The truth is that at first I really think that you were very annoying but slowly I started to feel that you are quite nice and honestly speaking that I found that I started to depend on you to give my "light" to my world, my world of darkness..Hoping that you will keep talking to me so I wont be so emo..Really..Feeling that you are my light to world, you arent like the others. What you give out is more than a friend could give..Hope you one day will tell me, your real name, your sch, your EVERYTHING..Hope that there will be that day..

Ping Ping..Today my lesson is at 9am..Hais I totally forgot that Im meeting RS at BK at 7plus and I slept all the way till 7plus..Then later sms him saying that I just woke up while typing I change my clothes to my uniform..Went down to take mrt to BK..Reach BK, walked to sch.Then actually wanted to eat in sch but then when I saw "N" and his friends, I just dont feel like eating but then lucky I saw one of my "er zi" asked him wheather want to eat with me. Then he agree to eat with me so we ate our breakfast together and talked alots of things..

Went into class as the class was already started for about 15mins. I was liked half-asleep in class but then I still got listen to what teacher wanted to teach us..Later on went to accompany RS till his next lesson but I was so bored till I accompany him till about 12plus but his next lesson starts at 1pm..

Went home with my "second er zi", we took train from BK as our sch (ITE Balestier) is at BK..Hais but never mind my sch is going to move to CCK mega campus le..So I just endure for the next fews days in ITE Balestier..Yep..Going to endure..In the train I was sleeping like a log, reach CCK. I went to buy drinks while walking back home..Reach home, use com to kill time so I fbing, blogging, watching anime..

Hais life is like that when we were studying, we will think that my time went so slow but when we were playing, we will think that time went so fast..

But who knows that when we put this 2 together time will go SUPERRRRRRRRR normal..Haa..Hoping that there will really be someone who knows how to appreciate me, love me, dote me more than anyone do..

I dont know when that person will come..Is it now or later or in the near future or there wont be any..Only will appear in my dreams..

Haa..Today nothing to much to say..Just a normal Sunday..Finding songs, MV, all sorts of stuff..Fbing too..Finding MMORG games to play..Hais really much to say..Only thing that is not normal is I today update blog very early..Haa..Cause I got nothing to do so update early hais..

Ohya..as I promise that every week I will update the week Oricon Top 1 songs..This week TOP Oricon is Going by KAT-TUN..Please enjoy this MV..It is newest album which came out in May 12..Hope You will like it..

Ping Ping..Today is just a normal Saturday for me..Sleep for 11hrs, woke up ate breakfast then on com to play games.Fbing and find songs..

Why must be relationship that will hurts feeling of others? Why does there be 3rd party in a relationship? Why there must be true love that is not true love at all? Why,Why Why..There are too many why in this world of darkness, a world of lies.

There should be only truth nothing but truth between couples.A world of no lies.Haa..I know it wont be there, it will only be a dream of mine that this world will change to a world I want it to be..

Just remember I will always be there for you.. Haa..This past few days, got this "Unknown"in my chat box..Haa..this person(dont know is a guy or a girl)quite ermm..I dont know cause no one who I dont know will talk to me in my chatbox and this person die die also dont let me know who is he/she is..So mysterious but I like it that kind of feeling that someone is out there looking,watching me..Is so ermm mixed feeling..Haa..Ok "Unknown" I promise I will be happy..Haa..Hope you will keep talking to me through my chatbox..kk..Promise me kk..

Loving someone that I know that is impossible is best to forget about and keep waking forward dont look back even it might bring back some sweet memories.Just walk forward maybe you will never know you might get or know some one who love, care and dotes you more than that guy/girl do. So dont give up hope that someone will loves you more than he loves anyone else..And I do hope that someone will knows how precious Im.. And I also hope that you all will like this 2 mv.. Good nights..

Ping Ping..Today went to sch as normal..Nothing much..

Why do people always like that..Act like they dont give a damn but they do..Why do you want to do this to me, I know I isnt like others girls have good attitude, nice figure or what so ever.That is me, if you dont like it why do you want to be with me..Hey dont you think that you are so BASTARD even though you got good point but do you know you really sucks to the core.

Hey love isnt a game maybe to you this kind of rich kids love is just a game of rich kids playing with those poor kids' feeling. But do you know that one day people will do it to you in the future maybe not now but when you think you had found your true love then you will know that that person is just playing with your feeling like what you did to those people in the past..

So wake up or else you will fall even deeper into that pit..Im now saying all this isnt wanting you bacck or what is wanting you think carefully of the path that you wanna choose..Do you really wanna do it, think carefully do you really want this..Be like that toying with people feelings..

Im not..Past, Present and Future, Im not..You think Im but IM not..I know Loving Someone Isnt A Game But Is Process Of Making Love..Hard to understand right but even you think carefully you will know what I meant..

Haa..ending post..Going to let my siblings to play their games..Bye and Good Night..

Ping Ping..Even though today got went down to sch but then today is just go down for the Navel Base Open House..Went down to sch as normal..Reach BK,sms RS that I reach le then he say going to reach le..While waiting I went to buy sweets..Haaaa..*Yummy*..

Then RS and I went to sch with ZhiDa, he so damn noisy sia..Reach sch, slack for awhile jiu went to find lao ba (Choo Chee).After awhile we EL1001A (mini class as only a few of us came down), went to the place, Changi Navel Base, go with some of my classmates and my CA,MR Christopher Ong. After that we went to see to the ship, then went to eat..Haa.. Then when the time struck 12..We went to the checkpoint to take the bus that the Navel Base provides for us..At that time we thought that we just go to the check point then jiu can go home but then when we reach there, we then knew that we need to wait for your turn to take..

So we queued for about 1hrs plus for our turn to the bus back to sch.While we were waiting surprisingly I saw my cousin,Shi Jie..Haa..Then when we met each other eyes we were so shocked to see each other..Then later on he aboard the bus after few mins was our turn so I slept in the bus till we reach sch,RS woke me up..

After that rushed home to change my uniform to home clothes as I was going to help out to give out pamphlet to the residents of Teck Whye Lane..After giving out I went home..Reach home use com to play games..And now,2115hrs, I blogging as I dont want to lose any of my memories of my past..

Ending Now..

Ping Ping..Today it is just a normal Wednesday sch day for me..Going to sch, seeing my friends, playing in class with my gans, how i wonder will this kind of life be forever even we arent together when we went up to poly..Today had been a very hard day..i dont feel like talking in details..

Reach home, I keep studying untill now, 2222hrs, still haven finish studying as I kept watching shows and fbing..Maybe tonging for awhile to finish my studys for today..

bye..ending post now..

why..why..do i still feel that Im lacking of something..What is that thing that Im lacking of..What the hell is that thing that Im lacking of..Why when I m alone I will feel that there is something that is lacking..Cant stay happy.Always keep moody easily..What is that thing..HA..I finally found it..Im lack of a touch..A hug..A very warm and loving hug..For the time being I will hug myself if I want to..

Ping Ping..Just a normal Tuesday for me..Went to sch as "normal"..Woke up at 0530hrs but then went back to sleep all the way till 0630hrs..Prepare...Walk to CCK station..Buy my breakfast @ Mr Bean..Aboard the train to BK..

After class end go Whampoa eat with Mark, Johnson and Eddie..We 4some went to eat and we all agree that to eat at Whampoa for the rest of the weeks in BK..After that we chit-chat till Eddie said that we are late le..So we 4some went back sch together..Chit-chat on the way back..Haa..So fun talking with them and spending sometime with them..

After sch ends went back home, fell asleep on the way to CCK from Bishan..Haa..Sleeping all the way till my phone suddenly rang and it woke me up that was the time I knew that I was going to reach HOME..*Home Sweet Home*

After doing everything I started to study 2 chapters of NWFD..haa..I had been doing this for the past few days..After that now,2212hrs,finding songs and mv..to post in my blog hais..feel like dont want my blog to look so dead..like very emo ar.. haaa..

This MV title name: Koi, Hanabi (恋、花火)

Haa..watch it..understand it..Learn from it..And you will be enlighten by it..I just dont know why everytime I listen to sad songs I will get some enlightenment from it..So if you see me posting MV please do the same as me listen to it regularly and you will get some enlightenment..KKK

Ping Ping..today just a nornal Monday sch..Hais early the morning 1am plus kena scolded by somebody for something which i didnt do..Hais..I really do pity those who believe what that somebody said..Hais actually I was so damn fed up and wanting to bash that person up but lucky I today went down to AMK to find my cousin to talk as this had become my daily Monday routine to meet my cousin for some talk about my life in sch and all my stuffs that had been bottled up..Thanks Kor, for being with me for this period of time when I needed somebody to talk to say out all my sufferings..Thanks for everything..

Thanks to those who stand out for me and those who trust me that this all isnt my doing..Thanks for standing at my side..Lucky I did make you as my friends..A friend that can shared some common topics and some views of yours..Thanks anyway for so trusting me..

Haa..going to sleep soon cause I dont want to receive a call out of the sudden and being scolded like nobody business again..So bye..じゃな。

Ping Ping..Today is a quite a normal Sunday..After going out with my sibling in the morning went back home in the afternoon..Studying all the way ( haa..not really all the way studying got plus watching MV, finding songs..), till now, 1818hrs..Blogging here..

Plus today morning woke up suddenly feel so energized, keep being SUPERRRRRRRR HYPER..maybe is yesterday scolded you (so call scolding la), hey I was being nice to you trying my very best to make you keep your cool down ok..you are si such a basterd..People just wanna be your friend to concern you ok..Why do you want to think so much..

Still can send me "Can you dont care about me anymore" in the afternoon 1259hrs..Hey do you know was just started studying for my exams..ok never mind..I m not a very in inconsiderate people orite..What I wanna do is be your friend and the presents you sent to me it is up to me weather I wanna to keep or not and you dont having any FUCKING RIGHTS TO ORDER ME AS YOU DONT SEEMS LIKE YOU WANNA HAVE ME AS YOUR FRIEND. So please stop saying wanna me to throw those present away..Ha..Since you insist to throw those present away I think I will keep it and I will bring it to sch to provoke you..Wanna bet..To me present from someone who I open my heart will always be with me..So soooooooooooo sad that you are gonna see that keychain again tomorrow..You can say Im very CHILDISH OR WHAT cause that me ..You should know my personalities..Im a very childish person; little girl, do you still remember little girl I love people calls me little girl cause Im just someone that acts like a little girl.

Haaa..gotta be happy all times..Ohya I forget to say that I just acknowledge Kelvin from TKD to be my Kor Kor..haaa..

haa..wanna know what is the Japan Top 1 Oricon for this week.? haa..I got the MV..I let you all reader see ba..

Gotta go eat..and find show to see..bye じゃな。

Ping Ping..Today there wasnt any lesson so today I didnt went to sch..Haha..Woke up at around 8-9plus after that fbing, watching anime and all sorts of stuff.Till my mum asked to eat breakfast outside and then went to buy ingredients for lunch..

Reach home jiu continued watching anime after that went out at 3plus to Causeway Point.Wah what a coincidence to meet Black Chicken in the same train as I was boarding the train to Woodlands.He actually asked me wheather I want him to accompany me to walk at Causeway Point but I see him like very tired le so I rejected his offer..Hais then I went to Woodlands alone,walk here walk there very bored then I started smsing people see who is free but then all of them all said the same thing "Sorry Im not free at the moment.Ask other people ba.."I knew the reasons mostly is spending time with their stead..

But then one of the gan di di say he was coming down to woodlands.As he was going home so he said he very sian also then he volunteer to accompany me..We walk here walk there, talk here talk there..After all the walking and talking we went separate ways as he want to go home le so I went to walk at Lot1 to walk..But still that feeling till wont go away..No matter what I do,who is there to accompany to distract me fro think about it..But still inside me somewhere in my heart still thinking but it..

I just wanna forget everything, stop thinking of the past,of the past we once shared..Everything but it seems impossible for me..I just wanna give up every single thing,moments we once shared together even though we dont really talked much after we patched back..No matter where I go I will looks at things,quotes about love,about the relationship betweens couples and I will be there smiling..Haha funny ba, why would I be so obsessed in you ba..Maybe is the things you did,show that influence me..Now maybe Marcus from Class N is rite ba..Now the only person can revive my is you ba..Nobody can revive my heart other than you..Not LJJ,Black Chicken,RS but it is you..You the only who did so much to open my this locked,chained heart but why when I was about to show you that my heart had been opened by you and you just give up..Now my heart is once again been locked, chained up..

Ping Ping..Today went to sch as normal..Wake up at 0530hrs,reach bk at 0715hrs.Called RS, he said he still at home sleeping..WTH sia yesterday asked me to wait for him at bk de then tell me not going to sch liao..But never I got friends, "sons" to talk to me..

But dont why today just feel like talking to "N" then I sms him as I walked to sch..Then he say he feeling very sad then he dont to tell me why..Never mind if you dont want to say it out is ok..I wont force you to say out..Just remember it is best to be who you are and not who you gonna be..

Then when I reach sch, I went to eat my breakfast with ZhiDa,Johnathan,Felicia and HuaYi.Even though Felicia and HuaYi never eat with me at the same table but then still got their presence..

Then later on lesson lesson lesson, then break, then lesson lesson lesson AGAIN..Afetr that wait for PaPa and my two sons to get ready to go home.Went MRT with Zhao Yan..haha..he lend me his ear AGAIN for me to nag cause there is something Im very not happy with..Thanks er zi..for being at mummy side this few days..

haha..going to fbing le..then sleep..haha..bye,good night my dearest friends and PaPa and also all my er zi..

Ping Ping..Nothing today just a normal schools day..

Bye Bye..Jana

Ping Ping..Today went to sch by myself, back to square one, to being all alone.It is so funny trying to make friends so I wont be so sad,emo.See, what I had done, all I good i is get into trouble and also need someone to help me to get away smoothly.See now nobody wanna stand at my side unconditional.NOBODY DO YOU UNDERSTAND IS NOBODY..What for start a r/s when I only barely knew this guy..Why am I like that why cant anybody like who I am and not who I should be to suit your requirement.

Back to it,reach BK then walk to sch with RS, reach sch le then we saw Zhi da eating alone.We went forward and sat at his table to eat our breakfast then later saw "N" walking around at canteen..Do you know, your presence kept making me cant forget you, your touch, your kiss, your everything..Cant you just be off to somewhere that I cant see you..Do you know when I saw you at the corridor with your class, at that moment I was going to the ladies but when I see you I just control myself that to look at you.Just walk past you to the other ladies in the second floor..Did you know the pain of seeing and acting that I dont know you,acting that there isnt any r/s between us,do you know that when I know I just cant put down..

Back to it AGAIN, after school went to coop to meet vivian they all,later around 5plus we went home then I accompany vivian to buy watch.Buy watch le we walk walk awhile jiu go home..Do you know when I was in the train I just cant stop think the way I treated you, I wanna said "Sorry I didnt mean it" but then I remember there isnt any thing between us..NOTHING HAHA NOTHING YA THATS RITE NOTHING BUT WHY MY FUCKING HEART STILL PAIN..MAYBE HUIHUI SAID IS RITE I TOO SILLY TO TRUST YOU TOO MUCH..HOPE OYU STILL REMEMBER THAT PROMISE YOU PROMISE ME..A HUMAN SIZE PIGLET..DO YOU STILL REMEMBER.THE PROMISE..NO MATTER I WILL BE WAITING FOR THE PRESENT..TILL I DIE I WILL STILL REMEMBER.

Ping Ping, today got nothing to talk about.Hais maybe this will help me to stop thinking of the past ba..And I will do more..Kim, jie finally understand your feeling le..

Hais today so sian and to do..fbing, watch shows,etc.Nothing seems to help me to distress. Sometimes being alone at home,nobody to talk to I will start thinking of the past..Maybe I shouldnt trust him but thanks that when I was going to start trusting him, he got a new girl lucky I found out when I played a trick on him to make sure of my suspicion. Sometimes slashing isnt a bad thing..It will numb the feeling for a while but it do help to stop the thinking..

Haha..ending blog le..listen to this songs it will help to smooth your emotions..

HAHA..This song is "That Should Be Me" is a Hq+Lyrics..Haha I still waiting for its MV sio..Hope you will like it..

Some people just dont understand me well enough, thinking that they know everything but in fact they dont know anything at all..Do you really understand my inner world, no, You dont know anything, I had changed since I left you all that time, I changed to be waring of people around me.They will harm me some time later, in the future.See take nico this case for example I long ago had been waring of him by timer me.But what he did was when I was already stopped waring about him starting to trust him, things went unexpectedly.

Being with Marcus they all is just wanna make nico angry and also see what will be reaction be, marcus they all knew it all along.They just dont wanna to say out clearly..See did you thought of that, NO rite.So just stop blaming me for everything le..I just dont to say things too clear.What I can say to you or you all,I had changed to a person who is waring about everyone untill when I think I can trust that person fully.Haha in this world my pri sch that good friend will always be that one who know my inner world even w/o I saying anything.She once said A friend should understand everything and shouldnt be easily angry w/ you.

No matter if you did see or not that it, I will solder alone.You wanna find me back it wont be easy le.Cause this I once said to "N" and that why he change.

Ping Ping..Just came back from my cousin's wedding. Morning went out to meet RS and Caroline at JP..Brought my lappy to meet them when i reach JP, RS and Caroline had been standing there waiting for me to arrive.After that we went to library to use lappy while Caroline study for her "O"Level but then eventually she keep looking at my lappy and keep criticizes nico's blog and his pic w/sam..Haha, nice one Caroline I totally agree what we say about timer and bitches..

Later we went separate ways as Caroline went home by bus, RS went home by walking and I went home by MRT as I need to buy book to read while taking MRT with my parents to Expo..Hais 1hour plus de trip.

Reach there, drink some beverages, slacking while waiting for the "actor and actress" for the day. Watching the VCR of the memories of them, how the "meeting of the elders" goes. Suddenly this thoughts came into my mind and I sent to some people : Love is like a game of finding one another..Like today, 8/5/10, my cousin finally found his..Seeing the VCR it reminds me about those ex(s) of mine who shared their love, care and time with me..Ooooo how I wish someone could do the same thing again..

Meanwhile, I ask Marcus to sms me, we talk quite lots of stuffs..But even though my cousins were there,none of them step out to talk to me..So lonely there but haha, my unique personalities "lure" my uncles and aunties to talk to me and keep making fun of them as that is my personalities that I,Joey Lim, a hyperactive girl and full of tricks of making fun of them..

After that when we were about to leave something happen and not want to talk about it.Later that we went home by cabby,reach home around 0005hrs.Now very tired wanna sleep le..Hais it has become my habits to listen to songs while updating blog le..Now I slowly fallen in love with this song,Love is late, I'm sorry.The mv brings backs alots a memories with all my ex, the time we knew one another to how we go on our different ways.But no matter what, once is gone it will never comes back to your side.Even if did it will only be an act for other people to see.

How I wish that time will only stops for me when I needed the time to stop for some rewind of my past.Some people went off, some came back, some dont even want to acknowledge me but then is ok when seeing them so happy with their other half.

Haha,let me listen for the last time before I sleep..Gd Nites folks..

Ping Ping..Today I decided to go sch on my own as RS wake up quite late and I had to go sch on my own..Reach CCK, aboard the train to Bishan after reaching Bishan then had to change the train to Serangoon then to BK.Hais the journey to sch taught me something that is important and that is to let it go everything you have and get a new, brand new one but then in the meantime studying is the only way to stop thinking of that person and his stuff.

Sleeping in class had become my daily routine for Monday and Friday as there only have one lesson..Haha actually there are two in Friday is I always pon PE that why it become one as that is ITESS..Cause of something that makes me sick about it, that why I didnt go for PE every week.

After that while waiting for RS to end lesson I went read my unfinished book.Haha, I finished reading it, the ending quite surprising..But then RS say his teacher extend the lesson so I told him I will be going home alone.But then when I reach MRT he said he was on the way to MRT so I went to wait for him.I waited for him for about 18mins and another word is I totally missed 3 trains for just waiting for him.Waited, waited and waited till I cant take it so I told him I will be leaving soon as was about to send him the msg, zhaoyan came down and aboard the train together.

The rest I dont want to talk about it..And also I make a group in FB, name: it is bullshit when someone say "it is bullshit when someone say "I love you more than anyone."

Haha quite some people join this group.Bye goin to sleep le..

Ping Ping..Haha today I become a sill and also a big SOTONG cause I today went down to meet my cousin at AMK..But while waiting for RS I so gan chiong till I totally forgot that my earpiece isnt w/ me..When I reach BK then realized that my earpiece isnt w/ me but then lucky CCC help me to keep till tomorrow..

So, lets me be short brief about my meeting w/ my cousin. RS and I went down to AMK to meet my cousin, haha, when we reached there my cousin reached yet cause he went down to meet his gf. Then they then come to meet us, but do they know that we waited for them for about 20 - 30 mins..Aiya, couple ma..UNDERSTANDABLE de..then da biao ge, his gf and I at the back of the MRT s**ke there.Then later on da biao ge sent his gf to MRT for work (can see that his quite miss her and also dont want to part w/ her.But Sometime life is like that, there will be meetings and partings.Just be immune to it and things will be all fine, someone told me this before.).

Then da biao ge, RS and me; went to the playground to slack and also talk about my stuff..Maybe he is rite or he is so damn rite about me and that guy ba.Lacking of communication and sorts of things.(Life is like a game which there will be winner and loser.But do anyone knows that some people are so proud that they are the winner in the r/s and thinks that once a winner always a winner.That kinds of person is a disgrace to this society or should i say a big loser in this game cause they had already fall into the pit of the game.)

Then after chatting for a couple of hours, RS said he wanted to go home le so da biao ge and I escort him there.As we are on the way back to the MRT, da biao ge and I talk more in details about my case..Haha..thanks kor kor, next time got day off tell me, we will meet up to chat..k..

Haha,going play some games before going to bed..bye..good night readers..

Ping Ping..What is Love?.That is nothing but bullshit when someone say "I love you more than anybody else in this world"but is it true..NO..It is not true guys is so damn good in telling all sorts of lies when the girl who is so totally all over him.. He just playing w/ her feelings like this kind of guys is better to die earlier..

Huhu..just now reading this book so touching sia..I still cry while reading some parts (haha, somemore I still plus listening to sad MV. Haha cant blame that I cry)..

Going back to study le..bye..

Ping Ping..Today went to sch w/RS and when we reach sch we saw Jonathan eating alone.Then we went to his side there to eat breakfast but I just drink my favorite drink, freshly make iced soybean.

After that when I end lesson, RS and I went to whampoa to meet Johnson and Mark. We ate like no body business lor. Especially Johnson and Mark ate the yu mian till their mouth were swollen like hell so red..Haha..

Then later we went to see the 7-11 near whampoa, WTF lor, the place like nothing lor so after that we went to the minimart to buy sweet then Mark go say "A, Joey ar want strawberry ma?." Then I was jitao shocked sia,then I was thinking what strawberry sia..Haha after that I remember Vivian once say before about the strawberry.It is the condom that she was talking about..*Dots*..

Then later I pon lesson for just to go down to meet LRT and his friends, also the writer, Low Kay Hwa..Haha he so damn friendly sia..Then I was there reading books while letting the time to runs off..While reading I took a peak on LRT, seeing how is his badminton and how Low Kay Hwa fight w/the other..

That was all my fragmented memories for today.Hais if not one day I really fall very ill till I will forget everybody that I knew it will be the most heart wreaking thing for my close ones to bear..

Bye..Ending Post now..My head is now very heavy but still can play some games to make it not that heavy..Muacks to You All..

Ping Ping..So bored..ITESS assignment 4 also done finished so here Im blogging..There is alots of things happen but I decided not to talk about it anymore..Not is I afraid of anyone or anything is I dont want to cause any trouble and I also promise my sec sch..Not to cause any more trouble (internal cases)..So that why I didnt do anything more stupider le..

Life is like a games there will be ups and downs turns, just know the way to counter it back and that is it.Nothing more or less, just sit there and see carefully then put out your leg out.

When things happen it is best to have someone to talk to and someone who willing to stand beside you to cheer you up.So friends are sometimes important too, so no matter what friend are here to share your burden, silly jokes, crazy tactics of yours and most importantly being able to being with you when you needs them the most.

Ping Ping..Hais today happen alots of stuff, lots of misunderstanding between me, feli and huayi..Things isnt what nico say..Actually it was all an act for nico, it was to let nico to let go of the past and carry on w/his life w/that girl..

Sorry that I make all this thing worse, Im sorry..

When you say you will stop caring about me..It means that you will not care anything about me rite..But why you still care, you should care about your girl ba..Just remember loving someone shouldnt ask that person to change for you and should be who she is then who she is cause when you say love that person is means you love everything about that person include his/her personalities, character, behavior, sense of humor, hyperactive, easy of clinging of people, etc..

But some people just cant understand it and keep making the same mistake again and again but there is a girl who never give up of keep hinting..Till the end the person cant take it anymore and got a new one just after breaking w/her.

Hais cant just somebody understand the feeling of that girl..She got to go through lots of insults and everything but one thing she did was very courageous was she gave him her blessing from the bottom of her heart and that feeling wasnt very nice cause it means that once it was said/send to that someone things cant go back to what it was in the past and it means a no return road le..

That is what I say very courageous, but she knows that if that guy she once love so deep is happy w/someone who is who suitable for him, she will be happy over the moon.Poor thing she gotta suffer alots but it will go away very quickly de..

If you gotta know this girl please give her your deepest admire to her cause I think needs it now and is alots..

Ping Ping..life like this was long ago being set to be like this.But people just wont want to accept it as it is too fast and is also very unbearable to face.But is very happy that all this will stop. Just for that very once..

Haha..dont feel like being like this anymore, kk..Today on FB then keep making kelvin laugh..Haha kelvin thanks anyway even though it doesnt help alots but thanks for yesterday and today for being there even though it just taking, sms and fb chat but it really helps to ease me down and I promise you after I quit TKD I'll jio you out when Im free..AND ALSO BLEAHS TO YOU..HAHA..

Yaoxiong: Thanks for being there for me this few days even though you didnt do anything much but what you did was the best le..Even though you just keep li xiao me and keep me occupied by making fun of me and my "son" but I can understand that you want me to be happy like before..

Huo Sheng: Thanks to you too..Even though you this few days never talk to me but you given me lots of emotionally support by KEEP SPAMMING MY FB..WTF..But then is ok..Thanks anyway..

ZhaoYan: Thanks to you for being there for me too..Ermm dont mind change to be my son..Haha I rather have sons than having lao gong ar..But anyway I promise you, all, I'll be happy and try to laugh more and I'll try to forget everything that happen to me in the past few months.

RS(Kor Kor): Thanks for helping me to act in that show..Hope he wont see this post and anyway that act is so marvellous..Excellent..Haahaa..This way I feel more not that guilty ba..Can say so ba..But the truth is I will NEVER FORGET HIM(かれおけっしてわすれない)..

Ermm I think there is no more people to thank liao..bleahs..bye..じゃな。

Ping Ping..when everybody has stopped their feet and take a look of the steps that they have took.To their surprise the path was flooded with tears and sorrow.After that the memories of the past kept flashing in the minds.The sad and beautiful past, but it was too late and was regretting of the faults that they make.As they knew that it wont change a thing as it was already set that way long ago, long, long, ago.They knew that the faults that can blame it was itself, itself character.

Then they will went all over to find that very piece of puzzle, when they had seen that piece of puzzle is very happy.They knew it time to go, to a place where can see that piece of puzzle in a higher place.

But do anyone really know what is the feeling when it see that piece of puzzle which is very happy with another piece of puzzle.That feeling wasnt that good but when it seen the piece of puzzle its feeling is happy plus feeling dying.

But it is all worthy as they had already treated it life far more important then their.Nothing else is important anymore le.

Just remember hand to hand, mouth to mouth, people to people, love to love, nothing else but the twos together.