im so sorry

Im really sorry that things end up like that..Maybe this is the best for the both of us.

Like what the songs says, but I would like to edit it abit and it will be the very LAST WORDS TO YOU as it is extracted from it:

Yeah, I thought I wouldnt be able to live even one days w/o you but from what was expected. Im getting along quite well by myself, you dont answer anything as I cry out "I miss you". I hope for a vain expectation but now its useless.

What is it about the person next to you, did she make you cry? Do you even see me, did you already completely forget me? Im worried, I feel anxiety because I cant even approach you or talk to you. Alone in the night, I erase my thoughts a hundred times.

Dont look back and leave. Dont find me again and just live on. Because I have no regrets from loving you, so only take the good memories. I bear it in some way. I can stand it in some way. You should be happy if you are like this. DAYS BY DAYS IT FADES AWAY. DONT LOOK BACK AND LEAVE. OH BOY, I CRY, CRY. YOU'RE MY ALL, SAY GOOD BYE.

Even if we bump into each other. Pretend you didnt see me and keep going. If old memories keep on being thought of, I might go look for secretly. Always be happy w/ her, so I dont think of anything else. You have to get along so there is not even a small regret in me.

Like the white sky and like blue clouds. Yes, just smile like nothing is wrong. Hope your heart is relieved after leaving me. Just forget me and live on. Those tears will dry up, as day by day passes.

If we never met each other then it would have hurt less. The promise of us staying together is now a memory, BABY. I'll pray for you.

Because I have no regret from loving you, so only take the good memories. I can bear it in some way. I can stand it in some way. You should be happy if you are like this, DAY BY DAY IT FADES AWAY.

OH, BOY, I CRY, CRY. YOU'RE MY ALL, SAY GOODBYE, BYE. OH, MY LOVE, DONT LIE, LIE. YOU'RE MY HEART, SAY GOODBYE.

Hope that after you seeing all this, you will understand everything and i leave you alone. That means I'll dont contact you nor call you anymore. Yesterday was the last time hearing voice le, and that is enough. From now onward there wont be Joey in your world nor your life and for me there wont Nico in mine too.. And Im sorry that I lied to you about alots of things, I really loves you..

Haha..these two songs so damn nice..it is dedicated to this person who I ONCE SO LOVE IN HIM..Hope he will not forget me..Wishing you with that lucky girl who capture your heart...

Ping Ping..I DONT HAVE ANYTHING TO SAY ABOUT TODAY..What i wanna say, when couple say break and got a new stead, the best thing to do is give the blessing from your bottom of the heart..Hais easy to say but to do is the most painful thing as the is the ultimate sacrifice that a normal human can do..And I today just did it, giving him the blessing FROM MY HEART..RS, Im sorry that I that time didnt know is that painful when you give hongyin and vincent the blessing..Im sorry, now i then know is very pain to see the one you once love so deeply to go kiss,hugging,loving w/ another person..

The pain still very unbearable but if he is happy, anything that I do is all worthy..And RS, I now then know that if the person you love is happy, anything you do is all worthy even it means to sacrifice away the life for the one you love..

going end post le..Crying just now still not enough still wanna cry once more..And now my heart ache untill very jialet..This is even pain the dying but is worthy and I will live to see him smile happily..Arrgggg..WTF so pain..BYE

Ping Ping..today there isnt anything to say about sch..I really dont want to talk about it..Just maybe I being too friendly and too cheerful too people le..Going to try being emo and quiet, that will be the only way I can stay out of trouble..

Maybe going to say SAYONARA to my this personalities ba..Changing for the sake of not getting into trouble,WAH that going to be a big sacrifice for me..But if it help me to keep out of trouble then ok then..Being a "stay out of trouble" girl will be just fine ba..

Ya promise "someone" dont to post so emo le..haha..trying to la..maybe being emo is my style ba..

"fake smile"..ending here le..maybe just being a shhhhhhhhhh people will be just fine with me..So people now the new fashion is to be a SHHHHHHH PEOPLE..

Ping Ping..today I feel so happy and sad cause of that RS lor again say sick..PS me alone again with the couple,hais but then is ok leh cause something happen during the break for the second lesson..

Haha dont want to talk liao..This one very private de..

After lesson, I went to cck to buy my "boyfriend" his clothes but then i buy the wrong size but he still can wear lor..But never mind after that i went to buy book to read, the title is BitterSweet Rain..Then later on went to buy something else for my nails..hais..Somemore that is for rewarding me for studying so hard for my exam..

Hais dont want to talk so much going to rest for the day le..Good night..

When you say you dont love me anymore, at that time very moments the relationship between us has disappeared into thin air but why still come and find me ..And it was you who say to end it in a different ways..Loving someone like you is a big wrong as you dont know how to appreciate people like me..And one thing female are to meant to be doted and not to be throwing around maybe you didnt notice it..

I hated myself that why I gave you the 2nd chance to patch back..Maybe I should really be alone with them and also Class P had already lost to Class M and N in the categories of friendliness except for Ivan, Clement, Delon, Alvin, Benjamin as they are totally different species from you. At least they know how to cherish those who are around they and know how to love them in a good way..

When you have time go out find out more about Class N ba..They are most cheerful and friendliness le even though they might look not that very good and presentable, also having to talk to this guy from Class N this few days I found that there is alots things that I had alots of things had missed out..

And also I wanna add some people to My World and they are my sons: Piay Jia Jun and Johnathan. And Johnathan's god father: Lim Zhao Yan.. They are my beloved ones if they got into anything or "SOMEBODY" used them to do something which betray their conscience, I wont let it go like that..

So FUCK OUT BASTERD (YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE..)

ending post..cause scold wan le..(HS) and also HAPPY BM

Haha..Now dont feel like sleeping..Lets tong foe the night ba..Is nothing jsut losing my another part of my soul ma..Nothing de wont die w/o him..will keep remind myself that this person will forever die in my heart..No more lover cause my heart had already @ 25/04/2010, 2020hrs pronounced dead.. Now My World Only Have RS, Caroline, Kim, Huayi, Felicia, LJJ, Bork Hang aka Black Chicken and All My Gans Family(including those who pronounced themself to be my kor when after breaking de..haha I love you all too so I also wont forget you all de..haha..MUACKS TO YOU ALL WHO NEVER FAIL TO MAKE ME SMILE FOR THIS PERIOD OF TIME..I PROMISE I WONT FALL FOR OTHER GUYS AGAIN LE)..No More "I Love You" and "You Love Me"..Sayonara..

ending post le..Maybe going to sleep after hearing finish this song call Glitter ba..

"Love Like This Dont Exist Except In The Minds Of Poet And Dreamers. It Couldnt Survive In The Real World."

This what read in this book call Love Beyond Reasons. And I TOTALLY agree what it say and NINI you want the answer rite let me tell you what I change my mind maybe you cant really change for me if you really want to noe who willing to change to the extend then you got to ask Rs to tell you all the question that we wanted to tell you on friday..I think you will be shocked to hear the question and the answer that I give..

Love indeed dont exist in the real world..There nothing call TRUE LOVE..Loving you is the wrong thing..Thought that I say that lots you will understand me and my intention but you seem that you dont know anything..

Then good bye le lor..

Ending post for now ba..

And also got one more..It call Glitter..This is it lyrics, same thing left jap, right chinese..

この夏僕達はより強く輝きを増す(這個夏天我們增添更多耀眼的光采 )
今をただ大事にして (只用好好珍惜當下)

思い出してる去年の今頃と(回想起來去年的此刻 )
遠い昔の今頃の事とか (還有遙遠過去的此刻 )
結局欲しい物は変わってない(結果想要的東西沒有絲毫改變 )
Yes! Still believe in love

あの日一人で涙してた夜を(那個獨自一個人流淚的夜晚)
今でもやけにはっきり覚えてる (哪怕是現在記憶猶新)
だけど後悔なんてしてないんだ(但是也沒流下後悔的淚)
Yes!’ cause believe in love

wow wow wow...大人になった(wow wow wow...長大成人 )
no no no残念ながら (no no no...有著遺憾的同時)
wow wow wow...まだまだ加速は (wow wow wow...要停下加速)
止まらない!(還為時過早 )

この夏僕達はより強く輝きを増す(這個夏天我們增添更多耀眼的光采)
踊りだす鼓動を確かに感じる(確確實實感受到這雀躍的衝動)
僕達の未来がどこへ向かってるとしても(不論我們的未來將要去哪裡)
今をただ大事にして(只用好好珍惜當下)

変わったものは一体なんだろう (不知改變的到底是什麼)
悲しいときに泣けなくなった事(在悲傷的時候不能夠認輸)
悲しいときに泣けなくなった事(在悲傷的時候不能夠認輸)
So! I’ll believe you

wow wow wow…大切なものは(wow wow wow...最重要的是)
yeah yeah yeah…君の笑顔(yeah yeah yeah...你的笑容 )
wow wow wow…そのためには空(wow wow wow...為此哪怕是天)
飛べるはず(想必也能飛)

この夏僕達の新しい旅が始まる(這個夏天我們開始了全然一新的旅途)
遠くの胸騒ぎ微かに聞こえる(隱隱約約地聽見了遠處心中的不安 )
僕達が夢見るあの場所へ続く道を (我們所夢見的是通往那個地方的道路 )
今日もまた探しに行こう(今天也同樣去尋找)


君の笑顔のわけ 君のその言葉の意味も(你的笑容的理由 與你的那些話語的意義)
ねぇ ちゃんと解っているつもりだから(我說 所以我準備要好好理解清楚)

この夏僕達はより強く輝きを増す(這個夏天我們增添了更加耀眼的光芒)
踊りだす鼓動を確かに感じる (確確實實地感受到了這雀躍不已的衝動)
僕達の未来が何処へ向かってるとしても (不論我們的未來將要去向哪裡)
今をただ大事にして (只要好好珍惜當下 )

End

Haha this songs also damn nice..

Haha..going to end this post le..

Hey Rs, the song I say I going to let hear and see is this..this is the lyrics I say going to post on my blog..the left side is the japanese writing and the right side is the chinese translation..

Music:D·A·I
Arrangement:Shingo Kobayashi

あなたは昔言いました/你曾经这么对我说
目覚めれば枕元には/当我醒来时
ステキなプレゼントが/枕边将摆着
置いてあるよと/一份美丽的礼物
髪を撫でながら/你还轻抚着我的发

相変わらずその背中は/你从背后看来依然显得
小さく賴りなくて/纤细而无助
だけど楽しい話なら/不过碰到了有趣的话题
笑い合えていた/还是会一起开心的笑

それなのに人はどうして/然而人为何总要
同じような過ち/犯下同样的错
あと何度繰り返したら/究竟必须演多少回
後悔できるの/方能唤起后悔

思い出している/再次回想起
葬ったハズの/原已埋葬的
いつかの夜/过去的夜晚

あなたは昔言いました/你曾经这么对我说
目覚めれば枕元には/当我醒来时
ステキなプレゼントが/枕边将摆着
置いてあるよと/一份美丽的礼物
髪を撫でながら/你还轻抚着我的发

私は期待に弾む胸/我抱着满心的期待
抱えながらも眠りにつきました/沉沉入睡
やがて訪れる夜明けを/内心期盼着
心待ちにして/即将到来的晨曦

目覚めた私の枕元/当我一觉醒来
大きなクマのぬいぐるみいました/枕边摆着一个大大的玩具熊
隣にいるはずのあなたの/代替了原本应该在身边的
姿と引き換えに/你的踪影

あなたは昔言いました/你曾经这么对我说
目覚めれば枕元には/当我醒来时
ステキなプレゼントが/枕边将摆着
置いてあるよと/一份美丽的礼物
髪を撫でながら.../你还轻抚着我的发...

End

The song damn sad de lor.. After hearing this dont cry hor..

Ping Ping..Today when I woke up w/ sickness on me..Hais, now I kana sick by RS lor..He keep spreading his germs to me and now i also sick liao..

Today I never go for TKD as I not feeling well and also dont wan to see the bitch, that f*** c***b*** face..And then RS also never go for his sch event which it held at sengkang then he say will accompany me at cck..

Then later we went to lot1 to eat and I keep pestering RS to go to buy this book call "Love Beyond Reason"..Haha he finally say yes, then later on we went my house there de carpark slack to 5++..

But then I was wanting NINI can come down to meet me and slack w/me..But he didnt so I went to sms LJJ and Black Chicken..Haha but end up only LJJ reply my msg, what I can say is that he is still the same still that humorous like before..He keep saying that my msg like so ramdom..

Haha..LJJ I so ramdom then very ma..Cause like that making fun of you so happy it bring me back to the past we used to be..I know is impossible for us to be like we in the past..Trekking together, fooling around together, talking some personal life, haha now thinking still feeling so happy but I do like to see you again even though you went down for the event..But I still be here looking at you de..so dont sad and be a happy OFFICER LOW JIA JIE ba..

ending post here..

Ping Ping..days w/o the person you love is the pain that dont any body can take..Haha, today i got nth to say..Dont feel like talking..Hais,but hey ZY what I say to you is that never give up any hope if you give up it, it wont come back especially for you de..

Hais dont feel like updating blog liao so damn tired..

ending blog liao..Good night my beloved villagers..

Ping Ping..after reaching home from carpark as it was raining heavily and we wanting to slack under the rain..Raining...Is the best medicine for heart breaking people to be emotional..Haha today download lots of songs and cry with it as it hitted my weak point..Haha so happy that LJJ is not angry w/me le..So now Im so damn happy that he had forgiven me, all my mistake and we decided to start over again as a friend ba..

Hope he wont left me alone at the "bus stop" again..Just then NINI called me and we started to quarrel..After quarreling with him I decided not to pursue any more things..Still thinking whether the bus from that army camp will come to my bus stop AGAIN..

But Im already very happy that I could once again sms him again, maybe try to love him back as a senior, brother, officer ba..Now then I know I cant really dont have LJJ beside me..Loving Some One Like him Is An Honour..Haha..

Going to end post le..I now very tired le..Good night..

Ping Ping..YEPEE I finally finsh my phase test le..Haha quite easy..But still need to ask fiend for some verification about it lor..(need to study more on RT le..)jhais going to end le cause now dont feel like posting anything..JANA

Ping Ping..Today there is nothing special just NWFD Class Test and haha I think this test I can scored well..

Being alone, there will always be a feeling of a strong cold wind blowing through every lies that we make. Being alone is nothing but just tears flowing uncontrollable in the heart as we suppressed more of it in the heart. Being alone and crying like no other people business in our heart.But the most important things is that sometime pinning on the person you once lose it because of a small mistake is the most hard breaking thing. And also loving the wrong person is also the most heart wreaking thing ever.

So dont love the wrong person..

Today I will just end here le..

Hais this song do makes people to walk back to the past for once..

Ping Ping..Today RS never come down to accompany me to sch cause he sick..hais today went to sch quite early cause today dont need to wait for that stupid RS (haha jkjk)..After schooling i went back home by bus cause my ez bo money liao..hais cant see free movie at BK mrt..

But then I saw this guy, I think he is Yr2 de ba..he looks so cute and so "an jing"..Hais but then I fall asleep after awhile but when wake up, the guy alight le (damn it)..But is ok cause it proves that I and that guy dont have the fate to get to know one another ba..Haha that how Life Or I should say that how it is plan..Reach home like nothing but after finding some/particular songs/mv like I just went back into time, the past I once shared w/that particular person..Loving Somebody Like Him is A Big NO..But I Still Fall For Him..If I really Get Off The Bus, I Think Partly Is Because Of Him..Waiting For Him To Finish His NS..Hais maybe I should forget about it le..There is no point thinking of a person who left a BIG OPEN WOUND on my precious heart..

ending post cause I really cant take it, the pain of him leaving me is still there..By the way Happy 4 Years and 3 Months Anniversary LJJ..Good Night

Ping Ping..Haha today is MONDAY..Hais is BM ar BM..Today went to sch with RS alone cause Feli and HY were meeting @ 7 at JE then we just went to sch w/o them..Eat with Rs and Zhi da..Ping Ping the rest i jiu dont say le lazy to say in details..

Ping Ping, after that went home alone taking train to CCK..Haha then later went to San Bookshop there to find books to read..But then God really "eyes" sia it really let me found a/some book that I like..Then not long i decided to go home so I when I was about to reach my house, I met my sec sch favorite stall uncle and he said I now look taller and prettier than before..

Haha so damn happy when I heard it..Reach home le jiu eat, bathe then study till afternoon 3-4plus then i went to play fb games again and some more is the same games i played yesterday..

That life when we think that things wont be like that but we just wont admit that things isnt going the way we wanted..There is only one way and it is to follow the flow/sequence/way of life that the God that you believe in had planned for you..

As for me I just wanna be different from other in the sense that I wont follow the crowd cause following them will only makes things even worse so i decided to dont to know anything.

Loving Someone You Once Love is An Unforgettable Reality To Face Alone..

Ping Ping..Today was at home rotting, hais doing the same routing over and over again..But then today i went to study as someone scolded me for not studying as my class test will be coming up in just 3 more days..Study till around afternoon 2-3 plus then after that play fb games till night cause of that stupid RS lor keep wanting me to beat his record in the Temple Of Mahjong 2..Haha I finally win him..He got 16460 and I got 17120..Im the Top 1 in Temple Of Mahjong 2, Level 7..Now only RS is challenging w/ me the other is just too "young"..

Haha even now still got anything to say, talk, do..Just going to rot like that..Being alone at home is the most miserable thing ever a human being can take..Ping Ping maybe going to see how is my results for mid-yr if is good then i might be considering going to work, thinking maybe going to work in a F&B industry again ba..Hais maybe not ba, maybe try to get into a Retail industry ba thinking it maybe a good idea cause Im too popular in F&B industry.Haha jk jk, actually is good that being popular in F&B industry cause it proves that you are capable to help the stall/shop to earn more profit ma..

Ping Ping..Now thinking of working in 7-11, my friend shop at bugis, Giant, hais thinking of things wont help anything.. Maybe I should end here for now..

So lonely at home though there are/is someone at home but to me is empty..Longed for someone to care for me, accompany me to go through the night w/ me at home..But I know there wont have someone who is willing to accompany me today..Crying for someone wont help but trying smile is even worse cause so sad le how to smile..Beeppppppp..my heart DEAD liao..

Ping Ping..Today after waking up I go use com till my mother scolded me say what i use very long liao then what my com keep updating but is my sibling dont know my com is updating so that why i keep updating.Haha, just after that NINI (you know who you are ar) sms me that call me.Haha so happy that he call and sms me, love him so much lor.Muacks to you,NINI.Then after that RS called me to talk, hais he seems to be very sad when he talk to me in the phone.After that I went to ransack my wardrobe to find some clothes to wear the i found a clothe that i so long never wear..Haha I show you de clothe i wear on my body ar..See carefully hor, dont bink your eyes hor.



Then after that RS called me asking wanna go his friend's sec sch carnival.So I just went down to find him @ WWSS there.

Then this one is after RS called me to go down to WWSS and is also very random.



Then after that I go in with RS, we play, slack and talk with his friends.Haha i finally got to talk to RS brother,Rong Tat face to face.WAH..he damn very funny de..Haha..keep talk alots of carp..After that me and RS got to talk to one of his friend cause she got some thing happen to her in sch..Hais why people think that a friend still a toy to play around with.What i can say is that people like that dont deserve to have a friend.After that me, RS and his friend,Caroline went to slack near JP and slack to 7++pm..NINI, Im sorry that I went home @ 7++ hor, dont angry w/ me kk..After that I went home to rest and now blogging lor..Life is like that,it will come and go very fast so people always cry over it when things happen but do people really think it carefully when things is about to happen.No right so always think when things come in front of you CAREFULLY..Haha going to end post le..Ping Ping..

NINI,I love you the way you are too..So dont give up easily on THIS SOMEONE..KK cause this person cant take it anymore.kk..Good Night My Beloved Villagers..

Ping Ping..Hehe..Todays there is lots of thing happen but i wont go into details as it is nothing to do with you all, the people out there.. But i do feel that life is something like that after all the rainy days there sure have some sunny days..Yaya..Agree..People always looks in a smaller picture but once they see the bigger picture, haha, it will be a funny thing like they will understand and think more in details the next time..Ping Ping..Gotta go eat le..Hope this words i gonna say will change your thinking..Thinking more further as it will makes things more easier to see when you are standing near it.Dont wait till you miss the cahnce as chance wont wait for people like us.So dont let go any of the chances that are given to you because it will make you even more regret.Haha now i really gonna eat le..Very hungry le..Maybe 2mmorrow then continue ba..

Haha..forgot to import my my post from my old blog..hais..So cute of mine..
Urm i think im going to do my things le..
later then keep update my blog..
HOHO.. HAHA.. Im going to a 7777 yrs old demon haha..
that what CCC and JJ call me.. Wah I very old liao..
Bye for now

haha..so long never post liao cos of studying and TKD..yesterday my sis do some thing to my blog lucky i today rush everything bak to normal..haha..going bak to study liao.. haha..ending liao.